Manifesting Lions

Can you believe I’m two weeks away from being halfway through high school and two years away from the rest of my life? It’s kind of mind-blowing. Not saying that I wasn’t ever living before, but when you’re growing up you’re ever growing and expanding. You’re learning lessons from your parents and figuring things out for yourself the hard way. We never stop learning, but it’s when we go out on our own that’s when we really start to live. My dad told me this once, “Isabel right now you are just existing.” Sometimes it really feels like it, but other times with the people I love I have never felt more alive.

I’m feeling a bunch of different ways about that, but I can’t stop dreaming about summer. All the things I’m going to do, and the adventures and the nights that are never going to end. Sure, Jr year is going to be crazy busy and riddled with testing but it seems like lately, I’ve been dreaming about the future. But even better I’m excited about these two weeks with my best friends last days of being a sophomore.

My guitar concert is coming up in a week. Our amount of songs that we were playing got cut down but I auditioned to play “Humble and Kind” by Tim McGraw with the choir, and I got it.

There are so many things I’ve got to do but I’m manifesting happiness and lion inside of me.

In my English class, we have been doing a unit on happiness and the manifestation of it, and how to bring it into your life.

All the Ted talk speakers agree that gratitude is happiness and I completely agree. When you are grateful for what and who is around you, you can enjoy it and be happy. They also say being vulnerable brings happiness too. I think I can agree. My happiest moments are when I am with my best friends, and when I am with them my guard is completely down. I think when you can let your guard down and be vulnerable you can enjoy those happy moments to the core.

The past two weeks that I have been at fair, and working really hard to get my grades in order. I aced my algebra test. I feel very burnt out, and I’m trying to take as many hours as I can to rest. Through all the chaos the last two weeks I have stayed happy and have not panicked once. I feel healthy emotionally and mentally, but for the first time in a long time, I recognize the need to take care of myself. It’s almost a proud feeling. Self-care was one of my goals this year and the conquering of my anxiety, and I’m doing just that.

So go out there and achieve greatness, and manifest the lions in your life that can conquer anything.

-Issie

Also, expect big changes this summer.

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Rainy Day List

Hello, people of the internet! How are you guys? I hope you’re doing great. I know I am, but I’m also a little cold. But for a girl who lives in the valley of Californa where there has been a drought for almost 5 years its freaking cold outside! But I mean at least it’s raining. Hence this post. So this is my go-to list of things to do on a good rainy day.

  1. Be Productive- Take time to do tasks inside. Clean your house, do some computer work, be productive. Get the little inside tasks that you normally push aside done, and do it at your pace. It’s raining, so its a chill day.
  2. Take a mental health day- Now that your work is done take a mental health day. Spend some time by yourself, take care of yourself, and your body. Do things that make you happy.
  3. Try something new- There’s only so much you can do while inside, but with the internet, we have the world at our fingertips. Learn something new, read a new book, write, do something that you’ve always wanted to do before. Listen to music, have a dance party, try yoga, just love your life.
  4. Watch movies!- Movies are my favorite thing in the world on a rainy day. I will cover Netflix and Amazon Prime for a good movie.
  5. Build a fort- Going with the movie theme, build a fort, make it comfy and cozy. Add tons of blankets and pillows, candles, twinkle lights, and make it a safe place. Let out your inner child.
  6. Make food- Food makes the body and the soul happy. Don’t go out and get food make food from what you already have at home and just have a good time.
  7. Hang out with friends- It’s good to take time for yourself, but we are always better when we are with other people. Take time with the people you care about most, and just relax in comfy clothes and have a good time.

Just yesterday my friends and I got together to play board games, and watch old movies, and play truth or dare. It was a super chill night, we took tons of polaroids and it felt great to just be together.

So if you have a rainy day, try one of these things. Because every day is a possibility even the rainy ones. Have an amazing week, and an amazing week. Follow and like for more where we hustle harder every day.

-Issie

An Ode to Being Alone

This is an ode to being alone. This is a story about a girl who loves to sit by herself. Why don’t people like this anymore? People rush around latching to attention, even if it’s from a negative place, but at least they are not alone. But why do they fear it? Do they fear themselves? I did once, I understand, but I also know nobody can put my demons in the corner but me. Every now and then they crawl back, but sometimes you need your demons to help you recognize when you need to let go of another darkness that has gradually put itself into your life.

People also have a fear of the dark. Especially when alone. The dark is nothing but another perspective of the day. Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean we should fear it.

Maybe that’s why people don’t like to be alone, we have a fear that we might get killed, or kidnapped by ourselves, but maybe it’s the sub-conscience thinking that they fear because they don’t understand themselves.

Humans are a weird amazing species. If you sit down alone for a second and just watch other people. That’s what I’m doing. I have friends, by reading this, you probably think I don’t, I do. I love being with them, or around them, but they know me so well they know when I want to be alone it’s just because I’m in the mood for hanging with myself because internally I’m a pretty dope person. But they also know when to not leave me alone. When my boyfriend breaks up with me, or I have family issues, or I’m stressed, or anxious about anything they know not to leave me alone because it’s hard for me to open up to people or ask them for help if I need it. But I don’t have to say a word, they know.

As much as we hate being alone, sometimes we shouldn’t. To any unspoken rule that humanity creates, there’s always a contrary situation. I love being alone, but I need my friends. That though, is what makes me human.

I raise goats (I know, that’s a huge twist in the conversation). But I can spend $300 dollars on a goat to raise to take to market. But he isn’t worth anything if he doesn’t have a friend. Goats are social animals, and if they don’t have a friend they are less likely to gain as much as they should, because they’re lonely.

That’s us. Well, makes sense, God says we’re like sheep. Sheep are stupid, so are we. We get amazingly lonely because we don’t love ourselves, and we fill lost without our shepherd, but we replace our shepherd with invalid things in our lives.

So far, we subconsciously fear ourselves and hate ourselves. Most people do. That’s another reason why we don’t like being alone, we tell ourselves we aren’t and don’t look good enough so we, therefore, seek validation through other people.

When I ran cross country I went down two shirt sizes and one pant size. But I loved myself before I started running and changed my body. God and your Mama are proud of what they gave you, why can’t we accept it. Frankly, I love myself on the outside, and on the inside. And my personality has lots of rough edges, but nobody can understand me and love me as well as God and myself does. That’s why I love spending so much time alone. Yes, I may have some problems, and panic attacks from time to time, but at least because I love myself I can tell myself what to get better on.

This is an ode to being alone, because you, and I are really cool humans. When you spend time with yourself, you realize how awesome you, the things around you, and the people around you are. This is an ode to being alone, and all it has to offer. But it’s offerings come from us, so isn’t it really an ode to me?

Comment below what you think! Like and follow for more. Have a great week and a great life.

-Issie

How to Calm an Anxious Mind

1/14/18

Hello people of the internet! Welcome back to my site, thanks for actually clicking on this. I’m issie, and today’s post is about How to Calm an Anxious Mind. Mental health is something everyone struggles with, some more than others. Personally I have problems with getting super anxious and stressed, but although stress and anxiety play off of each other, they are two different things, so a post for another Friday.

So for me, I can get anxious by having a teacher talking to me, or a stranger, or being in a crowd of people, sometimes it happens when I can’t get my ideas out on paper. That’s why I write so much, because my mind is such a mess, and that mess makes me anxious. Stupid it may sound but it’s how it works for me.

I will start to shake, my hands, and then I can feel it down through my spine until it hurts. And more times than not I will start to break down and cry. Remember, this normally happens to me when I force myself to talk to people, or ask a teacher a question in school.

How I Deal With It

The first thing you have to remember, especially when you are in the heat of an attack you MUST breathe! Everyone will say oh dude you gotta breathe, but you really do. In through your nose, and out through your mouth, deep breaths. If you can slow your heart rate down you will feel better.

I generally know my triggers. Sometimes my anxiety comes out of nowhere, and it’s like I have to hold back a storm. But when you know yourself, and know your triggers, you can reverse engineer a solution to help yourself.

So if you know your triggers you can make yourself a care kit that might help you in the heat of the moment. For me, that would definitely be tissues, and some essential oils that relax you. I also always need a notebook for me, because I will have a mental breakdown if I can’t write because whatever is going on inside my head will consume me. Just pack a small bag of all the things that would help you if you ever get into that anxious situation.

Take Care to Prevent

When you take care of yourself at home, and make yourself happy, you normally don’t panic as much. So everyone, say it with me, out loud, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

Some things I find that help me to prevent any attacks start at home with your mental health, and just making yourself happy. What helps me is having lockscreens and home screens on my phone of things that are meaningful to me, like my boyfriend and a close friend that make me happy. I also change up my space to something that’s open, and I light lots of candles the fire and the scents calm me.

Drinking water will also make your body feel better, and when your body feels better, so will you.

You also have to take time for yourself. When your like me, and you’re stuck in the center of stress and thinking you can’t do it, trying to catch up and get good grades. But when you’re working so hard, you must take some time for yourself. To take a shower, do a face mask, binge watch and episode of Riverdale take that hour to make yourself happy, because then you’ll be better when you go back to work. Because I know for a fact if I don’t take that hour for myself I will spend two hours having an anxiety attack/mental breakdown.

Yoga is another thing that helps. This year I wanted to get better at yoga, and I’ve been doing the 30 day yoga challenge with Yoga With Adriene on YouTube. Yoga allows me to meditate, connect to my God, my mind, my body, and my spirit, and as stupid as it sounds I feel peaceful, happy, and strong. But I take it as a time to draw closer to myself and to God, because when you remember that God is on your side, you know you can conquer anything.

So remember, you are not alone, an everyone deals with this! Some deal with it more than others. But never feel like you are alone. This is like my acne, it’s a continuous battle but it does get better. Thanks for sticking with me this far if you liked this like, and follow down below, and comment what things you want to see. Thanks for being here.

-Issie

 

Feels Friday #3

“The Little Things”

I feel genuinely happy.

 

It’s the little things that mean everything.

Friday night lights,

And stargazing nights.

Harry Potter books,

Trying new looks.

Kisses that taste like coffee,

With his green eyes gazing at me.

Being with the people I love.

It’s just the little things that make me happy.

My Life Monday #11

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE INTERNET

That was fun. Imagine me yelling. I love to yell.

Anyways… let’s get down to business. *trying so hard not to make the Disney reference*

Anxiety. We all have it. That’s what this post is about. Some have it worse than others, but it is indeed inside all of us. Mine came out of me during high school. It was bad freshman year, and it’s the reason why I never look forward to school and I need a ‘safety person’ if I’m going to be in big crowds. I start to shake, my mind starts racing, my body overreacts and I start to cry. That’s how my body reacts and when I’m alone and my body is starting to do all the signs I know I got to get away, I got to get away from people as fast as possible. Nobody can see this. This also occurs when I am under huge amounts of stress, which means I undergo this at least once a week.

Some people experience this so badly they have no more control over their body, I understand that, but I never feel it as bady as that.

When I go through this I have to be alone. I go into the band room closet, lock the door, put in my ear buds, and play my guitar. I need my time alone, and at this point my friends understand and they go through the motions with me. Because it’s okay to be alone.

I spend my time alone, but then the next day I come back to my friends. We go back to the usual hanging out at lunch. But every now and then when I don’t feel okay or I start to cry in the closet having a hug from Victor never kills. What I’m trying to say is that it’s okay be alone sometimes, but you can’t spend your entire life alone. If your friends don’t lift you up, and they don’t help you when your brain gets too out of control you might need some new people in your life. But don’t spend the rest of your life alone high school can actually be a great experience, but if you lock yourself in the closet the whole time nothing will ever be fun, and anxiety will take over your life. Don’t let it do that to you, you have a good life, so live it, and it is okay to talk to people about these things. In fact the right friends will always help you in these situations. But don’t spend all of high school mourning in a closet, and talk to someone about it hearing another voice than one that’s coming from your brain makes all the difference.

And another thing. It’s okay to feel sad for no reason. I tend to and I don’t even know why. But you can’t let any depression like that eat you up because then you can’t enjoy all the beauty that life has to offer. Personally in high school you need to find the people you love, and you need to find the thing you love. For me its Cross Country and Band… or Guitar. Cross Country is a lot of pain but it gets everything off my mind, besides our team is like family. A love hate relationship with running really bonds people together, heck, we even went out for breakfast last Friday before school. Band is also the light of my high school life. They play at the varsity football game, so we all hang out during the JV game. Mrs. Cassidy’s office is like home. We sit around watching Netflix laying out on her couch eating pizza pockets. It’s literally home. Which makes sense because Mrs. Cassidy is Band Mom as we call her. I’m not technically in band, but I’m in band as the honorary member as me and my friends call it. Band makes me feel at home and we live by our on rules, and finding a place, or even those people in your high school makes everything better, and it makes any problems fade away.

High school has so many positives although teenagers are stupid. But just like everything else in life you get out of it what you put into it, and you can make it a good experience if you choose to make it one. And step one to making it a good experience is by slaying your dragons by yourself.

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High school so far: Blackout Dance, Comic Con with my friends, White Out/First Home Football Game with the band, My First 5k

Life is an amazing thing.

-Issie

Music Monday #5

How to survive high school: Playlists

I don’t know about anyone else but I really don’t survive without music. During the summer I spend a lot of time by myself, but when school starts I am constantly surrounded by people. Music is how I push myself, how I wake up in the morning, how I keep myself up at night trying to finish the last bit of homework for tomorrow. So this playlists to survive high school.

When I wake up in the morning I listen to some good old rock. Like some classic rock, punk rock, and pop rock, to get the blood pumping, and to start off my morning.

I actually don’t have very bad time management, but if you needed to fom waking up with rock, you can then make your own playlists with a list of songs that add up to the amount of time you need to get ready.

Once school actually starts, in all honesty I’m still not awake. But that’s when the variety of genres comes into play. By the time I’m in school I start listening to more of a pop playlist. It normally boosts my mood more (well needed because school sucks.)

I am talking Algebra 2 this year, and normally I’m good at math but I’m having to focus a lot more to make sure I understand what the teacher is saying, and for that I use indie music. The indie music opens my mind, and keeps me in focus. Soft classical music like Mozart can also be good.

But when it comes to English or Honors History, you’re doing a lot of writing, and to get the creative juices going, or just to help me on the information, I listen to Beethoven. Beethoven has a very violent tone when playing, unlike Mozart, Beethoven plays with passion.

As you guys also know, I’m on the cross country team, so I normally listen to pop music or rock pop when I run. Like Hey Violet, a lot of All Time Low, and the stuff that’s on the radio.

After a long hard day, I still have Algebra 2, and Spanish homework. By now it’s about 7:30. It’s killer to have to to homework that late honestly. So for that I go back to my rock music, and I take breaks in between every page of homework, (and playing a little electric guitar because guitar homework is the most important homework, duh).

Finally, when I wash my face and brush my teeth listening to my indie tunes. To be honest I really don’t know many indie artists, but I really do like indie music, it’s closer to poetry set to music. SO I listen to it, and get those peaceful vibes, then I wake up and do it all over again.

Spotify: ispat100

Rock Playlist: I was born in the wrong generation

Pop Playlist: Pump up pop

Indie: Crisp leaves and lattes

Mozart and Beethoven artist playlists

If you enjoyed this, like, comment, and subscribe, and comment bellow if you wat to see some poetry that I wrote for kicks on Friday. Idk.

Catch ya on the flip side, good vibes=good life.

-Issie

 

 

My Life Monday #7

July 17, 2017

What is up people of the internet?! It’s Issie, how are you? I hope you’re having a wonderful life. So I am on county fair 3/3. I am honestly so glad to finally be done. I showed dairy goats and breeding goats this time around. I won first in my breeding class, and I won supreme champion registered goat as well. Pretty good for my first time every showing dairy goats.

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It was such a long week by the end of it, but it meant the world to me that I got to see my fair best friend.

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I also may have cut myself with my pocket knife. I would not stop bleeding, I had to go to the local ER. Surprisingly I didn’t get stitches, I just got it glued together. I felt absolutely no pain during the entire process, and I went back to working the very next day. But I gotta say, it’s hard to type and text with one thumb.

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I got to spend a great night with my my girl, and I got to help all of my friends show. I also got to see lots of great older friends of mine that I only get to see once a year. It was some pretty great times, and I can’t wait to go once again with my best friend Andrea.

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Oh, and lot’s of the pictures I put in placed very well, and one of my pictures won best of show!

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This fair can sometimes be a bunch of overwhelming drama, but this was an amazing fair.

On Thursday I’m off to San Diego, by the time you read this I’m already there.

So that’s my life right now. Thanks again for your support and love on my blog and my posts. Magazine writing and photography is what I hope to do for a living, and this blog is a really strong passion of mine. So like, comment, and subscribe, and I’ll catch you on the flip side.

-Issie

The Telepathy Twins: Chapter #9

It was finally dark enough. On the streets of a rich upscaled stores, every one of them was closed.

“Time to go shopping” Adam said to Adla with a smirk on his face, hoping it would cheer her up. She just returned a smile and looked forward. Knowing that, that was all the response he was going to get out of her, still smirking he looked to the door of the first upscaled rich store. He just stood there, on the street with Adla beside him, staring at the door. A minute later, you could hear clicking noises. As the tumblurs of the lock started to open up, and as the key pad inside the building started rewiring itself. Then the next thing you know the door cracks open.

Adla walks into the room cracking the door open.

“Wow” Adla said with her jaw completely dropped. Never had Adam ever seen Adla with such an expression of excitement and overwhelming happiness. She slowly approached a little black dress. Sleeves of golden lace, with a sweetheart neckline with rippling and flowing bottom. She turned around and smiled at her brother.

“I can’t” she said. “I don’t deserve this. It’s so amazing, and beautiful, I can’t Adam”

“You can, and you will” Adam replied tying a tie around his forehead like he was going to a rock concert.

“Maybe try the snap on tie champ.” Adla responded sarcastically.

“Whatever, go ahead, try it on!” Adam replied cheerfully pointing to the female dressing rooms.

“Okay, I will” Adla said with a smile.

Meanwhile while Adla was trying on the dress, Adam was looking at suits. He was checking out everything there was in the store. Being careful not to leave too much of a trace. He wasn’t looking for trouble, so he didn’t take any money, he just needed a suit.

Adla came out of the dressing room. Adam smiled from ear to ear. How she looked in that dress was absolutely breathtaking, and Adam was so happy he could provide for his sister like their parents, and like how Chase did once before. Adla smiled, and Adam returned it. She walked over to the full length mirror and twirled.

“What do you think?” she asked.

“You look beautiful Adla” he said in a soft protective tone.

“Thanks” she said with a big smile on her face. “Now, it’s time for you to get your fancy on.” Adla said looking Adam over at his torn up T-shirt, and his worn out shoes. She quickly glanced at the things that the men’s section had to offer and selected a pair of pants, a shirt, and a bow tie. “Now go and try that on” Adla said pointing him to the dressing room with a smirk on her face. Adam returned the look with a smile.

Adla was looking over all the things the store had to offer. She also selected a shiny pair of shoes, a sleek blazer with suspenders, and a fedora to go with Adam’s outfit.

Two minutes later, Adam came out of the dressing room with his clothes all twisted.

“I don’t know what I’m doing” Adam said looking down at his clothes. Adla just smiled, and told him to tuck his shirt into his pants, as she tied his bowtie, and fixed his hair. She threw the shoes on the ground, and handed him the jacket. Once Adam seemed well adjusted, Adla took the fedora from behind her back and placed it swiftly and angled upon his head.

“Dang Adla” He said looking at himself in the mirror, “I look good” he said. Adla just rolled her eyes. “Well now that we’re looking fly, let’s head to the party” Adam said looking down at Adla.

“Oh yeah, we’re still doing that” Adla mumbled under her breath.

“Yeah, we are, we need and deserve answers Adla” he said, and she nodded as a sign of agreement.

Before they left Adam swept the place of fingerprints, set the alarm and everything back up again the way it was before. As they walked away towards the party.

My Life Monday #6

July 2, 2017

Wooooooooooo. I don’t know. I’m just writing. This is how my mind works.

How are you? I’m doing well if you were curious. Having one of the greatest summers of my entire life.

Sorry for not posting on Friday this was my week:

Let’s start from what went down at the beginning of this week. Working out is so, so difficult right now. I am in so much pain, and working and working out twice a day is killer on me. I was alo in a little rut this week of the month, so I will hopefully be ready the next day.

Monday I was doing the best that I could, but I was also out riding my horse in the evening when it was cooler. I put on a good ride and my legs were screaming. But I think one of the best parts were I got to see one of my favorite people in the whole world. She is addicted to horse riding and I only see her once a year for fair, and it was amazing to see her.

Look, personally I am a goal oriented person and I am doing things all the time. It is so hard to be self motivated sometimes but I find that without even knowing I have to be around people that work hard and are goal oriented to and have a good energy that helps me. Most of my friends in school are honestly too young to be as self motivated as me, but they feel me with good vibes, but my older friends really push me and help me to push myself. It’s all just good vibes and it makes me happy.

We worked really hard on my horse riding skills so I could kill showmanship, and I gave it my all.

The next day was the horse show. I was up bright and early, got down to the show. My beautiful boy Halo was all ready to go. We won second in advanced, second in trail, second in equestrian, first in western pleasure, and first in horsemanship. It was amazing, I gave it my all, and I had such a good time. I was with this family that I only see once a year but all we did was lift each other up and congratulate each other, and we had an amazing time. Good vibes.

Wednesday, Thursday were surviving, but Friday. Friday I got to see somebody that I love very much. We have known each other since I was 9. She graduated this year and I absolutely love her. I slept over at her house for what was supposed to be one day, but ended up being two. We were clipping goats for fair, and I will tell you, that binds friends together. It was so amazing to be with her, and around her good energy. Her sister is also amazing and made funnel cakes. Uuuuugh so good. Because we’ve been going to fair together for years I felt comfortable with her family and their was no awkward period where you try and be on your best behavior, it was all super chill.

Nothing but good vibes and lots of goats. I can’t wait to see her at fair in a week, and again before she leaves to college.

Saturday and Sunday were spent clipping goats. My allergies were going off. But it was great being with those people and to sleep in my own bed.

So anyways that’s why I forgot to change the pictures a few days ago and yeah. Wow I’m such a good writer… and yeah. Okay I should stop while I’m ahead, catch ya on the flip side.

-Issie