Lion at Heart

Hey. This post is more of an update on how I’m doing and where I’m at, so if you’re interested, then keep on reading.

So, starting. My boyfriend and I broke up. We both wanted to break up, so it was extremely mutual, but I am a little sad because it killed our amazing friendship. We were only together for two months. This is the first time I’ve been single in maybe over a half a year. I’ve been thinking about my first relationship a lot recently, my 5-month relationship that ended back in January. I don’t want to go back to it, I believe it ended for a reason, but I have been thinking about how good it was, and how I want that, someone like that again. Definitely not for a while, but at least it helps me once again recognize what I want. I believe that after any relationship you should try and find a lesson in it. I have no doubt in my mind that I am going to find something better than what I had before, but the lesson is always something to remember to think about.

I’ve also been studying like crazy. Homework is non stop, and I’m trying to get my driver’s permit. I have one week and a half until my test and I am completely and totally nervous. Not to mention having an unbelievably horrible amount of homework because the hustle never stops.

Speaking of stuff coming up in two weeks, Merced County Spring Fair is in two weeks, and I am working with my animals every day. When push comes to shove, I always remember I can sleep when I’m dead.

But it sounds like I’m complaining about all I’m doing, and we don’t need that negative energy. Today I played guitar for the second time with my church band, and I took my new acoustic-electric guitar (Jessie) out for a spin. I was great. I love music, it’s such a huge part of my life. I always tell people my playlist says what I can’t, and all my walls are down when I am listening to music and that is when I am truly myself. Since we’re on the subject of music, my high school’s spring concert is coming up. Where the band, choir, and guitar will be playing. The setlist for guitar includes:

  1. “Another One Bites the Dust” Queen
  2. “Heart Shaped Box” Nirvana
  3. “Elanor Rigby” Beatles
  4. “Stand By Me” King
  5. “Peter Gun” Mancini

Now, that sounds like fun. It’s even more fun playing it.

I don’t even want to think about finals, but if that is what stands in the way of my summer I am all for it, but that’s a month away.

Anxiety-wise, I haven’t had a single panic attack since my ex-entered my life. He was a really good friend for a while. I was lucky to have him in my life while I did. Sometimes I shake, but I feel healthier and better, and it seems like my body and my mind are handling situations that normally ended in wasting time panicking, in a good and healthy way. I also honestly think I am taking care of myself better. Even though I will always put work and especially my friends over myself.

I have a new plant family. I love watching them right by my window, and they’re succulents so I don’t have to take care of them 24/7. They say having live things around you makes you feel more alive, and it does.

Ooh, and I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I got M.V.P for soccer. That meant so much to me. I was the team captain and then M.V.P. My coach didn’t even show, only the assistant one. That says a lot about the season. He didn’t say much about anybody, but he did say that he believed that I would do great things and become a great leader, and that meant everything to me. I have a lot to live up to next year if I want to be varsity goalie, but I will work hard every day because I have to if I want to prove myself and gain respect.

I guess this is a good way to lead into why this is titled ‘Lion at Heart’. The breakup wasn’t that bad, but as I mentioned it kind of sucked, but it felt like I was my lion self again. I never changed myself, but I was sad for awhile that’s why the breakup occurred, but something changed. I feel free again. It’s like a part of me, the lion badass part of me turned on again. I am working non-stop, and I can handle it, and I feel ready to take on and conquer this week to come. I have been looking at my phone a lot. The Quote Wednesday #33 is my phone lock screen to remind me.

There’s a fire inside me, and it’s back and I can do anything. So can you if you really want to. I have a new lion logo in the works hopefully to be up by the new may changes. Follow to be a part of the pride, and give this a like down bellow too.

Have a good week and a good life.

-Issie

 

 

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Pray for the Wicked Teaser Review

Hello, people of the internet! Hope you’re having a wonderful day and a great life. As some of you may know, Panic! At The Disco, (or Bendon Urie) has finally revealed what they have been working on for almost a year and a half. I know I have been begging for this and having waited for so long for these new songs, it was like becoming a Panic! fan all over again. Their sound is so different and distinct it’s not for everyone, but you’ll know it when you hear it. There’s no other word to describe it but, Alternative.

Before we jump into the review and the songs I want to give you a bit of background about the band. As I mentioned before Brendon Urie is the sole original member of this band. Their career jumpstarted when they were still in high school with their first album ‘A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out’. Soon enough their American Alternative Rock music shaped a generation of LA emo rockers. While still in high school and have yet to ever play live Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy caught wind of their music and Panic! At the Disco became the first band ever signed to Pete’s record label (Fueled by Ramen). Then their exclamation point after Panic! became an iconic symbol for their sound. With this label, they have dropped several albums with the future coming of ‘Pray For the Wicked’ as their sixth studio record to be dropped. Without getting into too much detail, people of the band started slowly leaving. Some for mutual reasons, some for more than that. Either way, you could hear a change as Brendon’s ideas came to the forefront, and they’ve never looked back, and never stopped making great music.

‘Pray For the Wicked’:

Panic! At the Disco, having been silent since after their Death of a Batchelor tour left their fans in a shock, or in this case a panic when they noticed two new songs released. March 22, two teaser songs were dropped from the album “(Fuck a) Silver Lining” and “Say Amen (Saturday Night)” Quoting a Tweet I saw somewhere:

“Brendon, putting parenthasis in the title doesn’t make them any less long”

-Unknown

Very true, but it also doesn’t make these songs less iconically Panic!.

The album ‘Pray For the Wicked’ is an eleven track record including:

  1. “(Fuck A) Silver Lining”
  2. “Say Amen (Saturday Night”
  3. “Hey Look Ma, I Made It”
  4. “High Hopes”
  5. “Roaring 20’s”
  6. “Dancing’s Not a Crime”
  7. “One of the Drunks”
  8. “The Overpass”
  9. “King of the Clouds”
  10. “Old Fashioned”
  11. “Dying in LA”

Brendon said that after his tour, and staring in ‘Kinky Boots’ he needed to take some time for himself to work on music and himself, and man was it worth it. Speaking of the tour, along with the new album dropping Panic! also announced the dates for the ‘Pray For the Wicked’ tour up on his website: https://panicatthedisco.com/prayforthewickedtour/ And just so you remember to mark your calendars, ‘Pray For the Wicked’ will be released June 22, 2018.

1.”(Fuck A) Silver Lining”

I personally believe this first song being released with “Say Amen…”  makes this song very misunderstood, and the lyrics are confusing, to begin with. I knew I liked it. With the bazar sounding opening:

To the old, and to the new
We dedicate this song to you

Then to pick up with a full beat shouting “Fuck a silver lining, because only gold is hot enough” I got the concept, but I think the Pop Song Professor on YouTube (who is a professional lyricist and analyzes songs and lyrics for a living) said it best. In the English Language, we have the saying of a ‘silver lining’ to look on the bright side of something or the good points after a storm. Brendon is essentially saying F**k that, only gold is good enough.

No wings of wax or endless mountains
Tragedies with penniless fountains
It’s just cherries, cherries
It’s coming up cherries on top
Sunset shadows through the trophies
I guess it just ain’t big enough
Say it one more, one more, one more

The waxwings referring to the story of the man who flew too close to the sun and his wings of wax melted, and the cherry on top is another term in the English Language referring to that something extra in your life. “Sunset shadows through the trophies” is trying to show that in the end, he wants to look back on all he’s achieved.

For the full analysis go to: https://youtu.be/AGpOED1cQrI It’s incredibly interesting to see all the literally influences Brendon uses in this song to just describe how he wants nothing but a good kick-ass life. He has no time for the negative, and he just won’t stop. Listening to this song you either want to dance or move in some way. You can feel a sort of connection to it, and with the curse word in it, it gives a stronger emphasis. You can only enjoy this song to a certain extent until you figure out the hidden meaning.

2.”Say Amen (Saturday Night)”

Out of the teaser songs, this one takes the cake with not only an audio-video but a music video too. This music video could be linked to those of “Emperor’s New Clothes” and “This is Gospel”, but before we get into theories it’s time to break down the song. For this analysis, I had my own theories, but I watched another video made by the Pop Song Professor, be sure to go see him on YouTube.

Been traveling in packs that I can’t carry any more
Been waiting for somebody else to carry me
There’s nothing else there for me at my door
All the people I know aren’t who they used to be
And if I try to change my life one more day
There would be nobody else to save
And I can’t change into a person I don’t wanna be, so
Oh, it’s Saturday night, yeah

This first verse is about how Brendon is trying to be himself. He mentions that his friends aren’t who he thinks they are and he’s been carrying them, but they don’t do the same for him. In the end, he doesn’t want to lose who he is so he says well it’s Saturday night.

This song has an interesting concept. I think everyone can relate to having two-faced people in their lives, but saying it’s Saturday night is a different way of bringing out who you really are. Whether you’re going out to get over something or binge-watching Netflix I guess it’s one way show a pure version of yourself.

Swear to God, I ain’t ever gonna repent

He doesn’t care, he’s not gonna apologize for who he really is, as this line is repeated in every chorus.

Brendon makes it so he almost sounds sorry for himself in the first verse but by the chorus, he shows his true self, and his true vocals as he takes over singing that this is who he is and if you don’t like it, deal with it. What a great way to go through life? But finally in the true fashion of Panic! At the Disco Brendon whips out a high note to end all high notes. It could probably shatter glass, but then again Brendon can do that with his good looks too.

Music videos:

In “Say Amen…” An artifact called the Devils Key is stolen by Brendon. People sneak into his place and he starts killing them when he defeats all the bad guys (it’s pretty intense, but that’s Panic! for ya), his girlfriend comes in. They start kissing, and as Brendon takes his shirt as she sees the Devil’s Key, and ironically kicks him in the crotch right as he hits the high note. She eventually takes the key and his heart starts beating like the opening of “This is Gospel”. Everyone thinks the storyline goes “Say Amen (Saturday Night)”, “This is Gospel”, “Emperors New Clothes”. But I think “Emperors New Clothes came first, and that’s where the Devil’s Key was formed, then moving to “Say Amen (Saturday Night)” To finish off with “This is Gospel”.’

I hope you enjoyed the background of these songs. I’m excited for the release of the new album, and this is just what I’ve been waiting for. Comment on your music video theories, and like and follow for more.

-Issie

 

 

Out of Hybernation

There is finally a break from all the rain! Sunshine is here and in a pleasant amount! (Generally, in the Central Valley of California it’s either one extreme of wet and cold to the other of triple number degree temperatures.) I have been waiting for spring to finally, well, spring up from the earth. I always find when the temperature gets cold I always find reasons to have the blues, even if it is from external forces that are out of my control. Spring means school is almost over, I can wear flip flops and run more. Even better it means that summer is almost here! But I am not mentally or physically prepared for heatwaves that feel like they last from infinity.

As March is winding to an and it felt like it wasn’t quite my month. I was very busy with school, and I ignored the things that I want to manifest into my life or some things I should do to take care of myself. Not a single panic attack and I never stopped hustling.

Some of the biggest things I’ve wanted to manifest into my life include:

  • New blog logo- I want to create a logo that goes at the top of my website for the tab and a logo that represents me and I can put on everything.
  • Lions- Follow up post on the reasoning for Lions next week, follow to hear about it when it goes up.
  • Plants- It’s spring! I want more plants, and I want to work hard not to kill them.
  • Better outfits- Because California has been in a drought since I was a baby child my wardrobe is mainly equipped with warmer climates. Despite how much I love my sweater that I wear every single day of my life, I want to change things up now that it’s warmer to boost my confidence a bit.
  • My driver’s test!- I forgot to study a lot this month for it.
  • Acoustic electric guitar- I’ve wanted one for a half a year now and my playing has gotten much better.

Since we’re talking about playing guitar. I’ve been playing for three years. I am a pretty solid rhythm guitarist. I want to get better at playing lead electric guitar solos and improvising. But now, I am playing acoustic guitar at my church every month. I play three songs and strictly rhythm. I can sing, but I can’t carry a tune in a bucket in the keys that the church plays in (G and B).

I have three guitars now, two electric and one acoustic. My electric’s name is Jay Fender, he is a Fender Stratocaster, the new electric guitar was given to me by my boyfriend that plays blacksaphone and got this guitar when he was a kid. He no desires to learn guitar so this is the newest member of our family. His name is Tiny Tim, being that he is a Stratocaster Mini. Finally, my very first guitar is a red acoustic Jhonson guitar, his name is Martin. I can’t use Martin on stage because he’s not electric, and he’s getting too small being that I got him 5 years ago when I was small.

This month for me has been an amazing transition from all the problems I was having to kicking ass. If you would like to hear me play guitar, or just hear more about guitar let me know in the comments. As I am coming out of hibernation I will continue to learn and make myself better, as well as take care of myself and do some things to make myself happy. I hope you all will do the same and continue to grow into some amazing human beings.

-Issie

 

Panic Attack Aftermath Care List

So I had two panic attacks this week. One was out of the blue, and the other was for a very minor reason. I am okay, but it was just intense and I keep on dwelling on it, and I felt very shaken up about it. I feel a lot better, but I’ve been busy, although I know I need to take care of myself, I don’t have time to take a night for myself. So I’m trying to incorporate little things that I love to go into my busy schedule to help me. I mean, I’m writing this blog post, and writing always helps. So I am giving you my list of things I like to do to pick myself up after a hard panic attack. If you’ve ever been through one. They come out of nowhere, they shake you up, and they are emotionally and physically draining. Sometimes it’s also hard to get on with your day after.

  1. Meditate- Meditation is the best thing of life let me tell you. Meditation can come in so many ways. It can be in the form or writing, singing, praying, reading, or just straight up sitting in a cross-legged position on a yoga mat going full-on boho. I like to meditate outside barefoot on my yoga mat. Granted sometimes I meditate in different ways, but I love sitting there on my mat, feeling the grass in between my toes at the edge of it. Breathing in all of the sents around me and just taking it all in. I think I pray, sometimes I even shut down for a full 30 minutes. This is one of the most helpful things after a panic attack because most of all its a brief time to breathe in and breathe out, and that is one of the most important things to do right after. Considering you generally hyperventilate beforehand.
  2. Replenish yourself- Panic attacks are mentally and physically draining, so please, eat some food, and drink some water.
  3. Talk to someone!- Talking to someone even if they don’t deal with stuff like this is better than keeping it in. In fact, it just causes you too well up your emotions and you risk the chance of a mental breakdown. And man we’re trying to get that negative energy out of here!
  4. Repeat mantras or affirmations- Speaking of positive vibes only, when you panic, often after you feel so overwhelmed like a negative cloud is still over you even after, but you can’t let it ruin your whole day, or your life for that matter. So whisper positive afirmations under your breath. Don’t be hard on yourself. You already went through enough physically.
  5. Take the night off- Take the night off, put yourself back together. Do your favorite stuff. Dress yourself up, get comfy, listen to music etc.
    1. Build a fort- Build a fort somewhere in your house make it comfy. Put lots of blankets in it, and lots of pillows. Get your computer, and some candles. Being in a fort also makes you feel more like a kid, and you can lay low and relax.
    2. Watch movies- Movies are the best I love watching Clueless, and School of Rock. I prefer watching comedies, or like 90’s-20’s movies.
    3. Listen to music- Music is the way the soul speaks when words don’t work so well and my friends are good listeners, but they have horrible advice but I know they’re always there for me but they’re boys and they’re bad at giving advice. So music helps a lot. My Spotify playlists (Running and Thinking, and Problematic help a lot) ispat1000
  6. Take care of yourself- Drink water, eat food, be nice to yourself.

This isn’t something to be ashamed of or to get mad of yourself about, this is something to accept as a part of you, but always work to minimize it’s affect on your life. Because you can always have a bad day, but in the end, it is our choice to have a bad life. I love you all. Like and follow for more.

-Issie

M A N I A

Hey peoples. I decided to actually do a post for Friday. Monday was a bit downing, but I feel a lot better now. I hope anyone who was feeling crappy then too is feeling better.

But today we have something better, and more important to talk about. Fall Out Boy released a new album! M A N I A! I swear this album might have made purple my color for 2018. It’s so good. To most people F.O.B. is a very bazar taste. They’re a very unique sound with some strange lyrics that make sense at the same time. The fans understand. I love the new album. Let me tell you about my top songs on the album and why.

I’m not going to review all the songs, but I’m going to first put them in order in which I like them.

  1. “Heaven’s Gate”
  2. “Wilson (Expensive mistakes)”
  3. “Church”
  4. “HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T”
  5. “Champion”
  6. “Young and Menace”
  7. “Sunshine Riptide”
  8. “Bishops Knife Trick”
  9. “Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea”

This album is close to the same length of songs as American Psycho. Their last album (11 songs) which is pretty good, because it takes a lot to make an album, especially these F.O.B. albums with so much fire.

“Heaven’s Gate”- Let’s talk about this song. It is so beautiful. The words are so beautiful. Some of the lyrics are once again bazar but make perfect sense. I love Patrick’s vocals in the chorus, it’s a little raspy, but sometimes they sing like they’re a heavy metal band not pop, but that’s just how diverse their sound is. It’s 5 chords, making it more interesting than a basic 4 chord song.

The song talks about maybe not making it to heaven, and having a friend boost you over the gate, and how you want to be with your significant other forever.

“HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T”- I’d rather talk about this song more than the two above it just because the other two I love and have a meaningful impact on me, but this song, but this song is just so cool.

The music video for this song was shot trying to represent Dia de los Muertos 2016. I think this beat I just don’t know how to describe it it’s so cool!. It just makes you want to get up and dance and move your ass! It’s so rock, and fun. I am apparently bad with words now… I will be honest the song is a bit autotuned. Especially towards the end bridge. If you listen to him sing this song live on I think it is the Today Show, Patrick’s voice totally cracks. It’s a hard note he’s trying to hit.

“Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea”- This song I wanted to mention I put last because personally I wasn’t into it, and I couldn’t get into it, and I felt like some of the transitions from verse to bridge to chorus were too clashing for my taste. But this song is still on my playlists, and I like to listen to it before games for a little extra to pump me up.

Fall Out Boy did a great job on this new album, and I feel like they grew a bit but their music is still continuously true to who they are as a band. F.O.B. is definitely not for everyone… but I know I’m addicted. If you want to hear some of their stuff on my personal playlists ispat1000 on Spotify. It’s been awhile since I’ve talked about music, and I am definitely band trash. Comment below if you’d like to hear me do some guitar stuff. If you find me tolerable, like and follow for more.

Rock on people.

-Issie

It’s Hard to Write.

1/12/18

It’s hard to write. But it’s all I want to do. I just want to type and tell my story, but the words won’t come out, or they do but in the most absurd format. I don’t know if I’m okay. I thought I was, but I really don’t know.

School is hard, and my boyfriend and I broke up. As stupid as it may seem I cared a lot for him. He’s still in my life, but it’s hard to love him in a different way now. It’s hard, it’s all just hard. I refuse to let myself cry, I am too busy to do that. Now that I actually have time to cry, I don’t. I want to, it would be easier, but I can’t. My mind is racing with so much, I don’t know how to get it all out. I’ve written in so many pages in so many notebooks. I’ve tried talking to my friends, but nobody can make me feel better. I always used to depend on myself anyways. But after five months with him, I wanted to talk to somebody.

I don’t know what to write about, but I know I want to write. Writing is my best friend that is always there for me, and those pages never tell my secrets.

I’m nervous to go to school, last week that’s when we broke up my anxiety was acting up really bad. I’m worried it will tomorrow too.

I don’t know.

But it’s not like everything is bad. I’m now officially a part of the church band. They were playing music today, and they said they wished they had another guitarist, and I said I could play both rhythm and lead. So, now I’m playing once a month. I’ve been playing for three years, and now I can play almost any song I want.

Guitar is kind of like writing. It’s a war of expression.

Ooh, another thing I’ve gotten totally into now is yoga. I got a new matt. I’ll talk more about it in another post, but it’s so good.

Speaking of stuff I’m going to talk about latter, Fall Out Boy released their new M A N I A album. It’s really good, they’ve definitely got a bit of a different tone, but they are still staying completely true to themselves as a band, and their sound.

I also finally finished binge watching the TV show Friends, I love it.

You know what, I know I’m rambling about somethings stupid, but it feels good to write about it. I feel better. I don’t know if that’s just temporary, or not but I feel better, and that’s a step in the right direction.

It’s also super comforting knowing that even though I’m doing this by myself, I am not completely because God is on my side. The night that we broke up, I was goalie for my soccer team. I was by myself on our side of the field. The ball was on the other side, about to be played. I was just talking to myself, and picking at the grass. There’s really not much else to do when the ball is on the other side of the field. I am team captain, and we could have beaten this team if we wanted it. We lost, we didn’t want it. But while I was talking to myself I was praying out loud. That’s how I pray. I pace around and talk to myself, but in my mind I’m ranting or talking to an old friend. I told him, I gave myself, everything I had to Him. I told Him that I wanted to win the game, but I trusted in His plan.

We broke up.  It was for a mutual reason, but it’s still hard. But I told God I trusted him, so I have to continue to trust. My boyfriend wasn’t a Christian, and long term, I wouldn’t want to marry someone who wasn’t. But maybe, God will bring him closer. Because I truly believe in the power of God, because it has changed my life. And you may doubt me, but things have to break before they get better.

I normally don’t like to share stuff like this with the internet, but It’s not like there’s much to tell. Besides, this isn’t anything I don’t feel comfortable sharing. But I seriously feel a lot better after writing this, and knowing that somebody is reading, and maybe feeling better because they’re going through something too. That’s why I’m posting this on Monday and not Friday. Maybe a little something to help you through your week.

So yeah, to everyone who actually read all the way through, thanks for reading, take care of yourself, and have a wonderful life.

-Issie

My Life Monday #17

Hello people of the internet. Sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve put up a post, but in my defence soccer season is officially here and in full force. I’ve had games almost every day. I am on the girls JV soccer team, and this was the first year we ever went to a tournament. Most girls are new to the team, some aren’t and we placed fourth out of five teams. Not too shabby. I am the new team captain. It honestly meant so much to me when the coach handed me the band that said captain on it and asked if I wanted to take over. I’ve been playing soccer for seven years. It’s my sport. I’m not the best player in the world, but I love playing this game. It’s so stupid but being aggressive makes me feel like a badass, and my friend Andrea and I can vouch for this, when you play it feels like you have a connection with the ball, and as I’ve grown with the name I’ve learned lots of strategy. Besides, I’m definitely a competitive girl that loves to win, so soccer means a lot to me. Oddly it’s a piece of me that I’ve had with me growing up, and it meant a lot to me that my coach recognized me for it and trusted me with getting the team going.

But I also miss running so much. Running joined my life about thid time least year, and it has changed my life. It changed my body, my mindsets, and so much more. I don’t have the energy to run with homework and soccer practice, but I try to make time for it on the weekends, because I miss ab workouts, and just running a straight three miles with headphones on. Funny story, the day after Thanksgiving I think it was. I knew I had soccer practice the next day, and I was feeling kind of flabby. So I just decided to run three miles. I wiped it out like it was nothing. It sucks that most people my age don’t understand how much running can do for you. It’s hard at life, but you push through the pain. When you run through the emotional and physical pain in your life it’s like breaking down a wall. I feel an indescribable high, and it makes me so happy. That and the fact that I can binge whatever I want and not gain fat.

This entire post is going to be a talk about my life right now, perspectives, and thoughts of the moment stuff like that. Like and follow for more if you find me tolerable.

Happy December everyone! Merry Christmas! And all that jazz. I really enjoy Christmas season. It makes me feel at peace and in the moment, and filled with joy giving stuff to my friends and just spending time with them. And with end of December comes new year! This is such an insane thought, but I’ve had this blog up for a year. Wow how it’s grown. But that’s another post for another time.

It’s Christmas time! So I’ve been scrambling to get presents. Actually now that I’m older it’s nice to understand the financial situation of my family, and to not want everything for Christmas. Getting presents for my friends hasn’t been anything super stressed so I honestly went to Dollar General (my favorite store) and bought all my friend some small gifts for Christmas. My boyfriend is the harder one to ship for because I want to get him something really special but not over the top and definitely not expensive.

But the other thing I have to concern myself about in December is finals. Oh the ‘f’ word I’ve been begging people not to say, but it’s here. I have to start studying for it. I am talking all advanced classes, but because I am a Sophmore I cannot take AP classes (kinda happy about that). I can normally handle my advanced and honors classes, but I’m struggling as I always am with Algebra 2 and Spanish those have always been my hardest classes. I have a C in algebra and I am 1% away from a B and this test can make or break my grate for the semester. Ah the stresses! I’ll get through it, but I just can’t stop hustling for a second. Especially with a band concert this week, and lots of games in between. I also have to finish Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire in a week and I’m not even half way through, so audiobook here I come.

I haven’t been stressing about it at all really, but at the same time my acne is so bad. I haven’t been insecure about anything in a long time, but this is really starting to get to me. I am trying to eat healthy, and drink water I’m not really stressed at all but it is so red. My bad spot is normally on my chin. It’s red and it hurts so bad. If you have any tips please comment them bellow.

Anyways, thanks for being here if you read to the end, remember good vibes = good life, and the hustle never stops. See you on Wednesday.

-Issie