How to Calm an Anxious Mind


Hello people of the internet! Welcome back to my site, thanks for actually clicking on this. I’m issie, and today’s post is about How to Calm an Anxious Mind. Mental health is something everyone struggles with, some more than others. Personally I have problems with getting super anxious and stressed, but although stress and anxiety play off of each other, they are two different things, so a post for another Friday.

So for me, I can get anxious by having a teacher talking to me, or a stranger, or being in a crowd of people, sometimes it happens when I can’t get my ideas out on paper. That’s why I write so much, because my mind is such a mess, and that mess makes me anxious. Stupid it may sound but it’s how it works for me.

I will start to shake, my hands, and then I can feel it down through my spine until it hurts. And more times than not I will start to break down and cry. Remember, this normally happens to me when I force myself to talk to people, or ask a teacher a question in school.

How I Deal With It

The first thing you have to remember, especially when you are in the heat of an attack you MUST breathe! Everyone will say oh dude you gotta breathe, but you really do. In through your nose, and out through your mouth, deep breaths. If you can slow your heart rate down you will feel better.

I generally know my triggers. Sometimes my anxiety comes out of nowhere, and it’s like I have to hold back a storm. But when you know yourself, and know your triggers, you can reverse engineer a solution to help yourself.

So if you know your triggers you can make yourself a care kit that might help you in the heat of the moment. For me, that would definitely be tissues, and some essential oils that relax you. I also always need a notebook for me, because I will have a mental breakdown if I can’t write because whatever is going on inside my head will consume me. Just pack a small bag of all the things that would help you if you ever get into that anxious situation.

Take Care to Prevent

When you take care of yourself at home, and make yourself happy, you normally don’t panic as much. So everyone, say it with me, out loud, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

Some things I find that help me to prevent any attacks start at home with your mental health, and just making yourself happy. What helps me is having lockscreens and home screens on my phone of things that are meaningful to me, like my boyfriend and a close friend that make me happy. I also change up my space to something that’s open, and I light lots of candles the fire and the scents calm me.

Drinking water will also make your body feel better, and when your body feels better, so will you.

You also have to take time for yourself. When your like me, and you’re stuck in the center of stress and thinking you can’t do it, trying to catch up and get good grades. But when you’re working so hard, you must take some time for yourself. To take a shower, do a face mask, binge watch and episode of Riverdale take that hour to make yourself happy, because then you’ll be better when you go back to work. Because I know for a fact if I don’t take that hour for myself I will spend two hours having an anxiety attack/mental breakdown.

Yoga is another thing that helps. This year I wanted to get better at yoga, and I’ve been doing the 30 day yoga challenge with Yoga With Adriene on YouTube. Yoga allows me to meditate, connect to my God, my mind, my body, and my spirit, and as stupid as it sounds I feel peaceful, happy, and strong. But I take it as a time to draw closer to myself and to God, because when you remember that God is on your side, you know you can conquer anything.

So remember, you are not alone, an everyone deals with this! Some deal with it more than others. But never feel like you are alone. This is like my acne, it’s a continuous battle but it does get better. Thanks for sticking with me this far if you liked this like, and follow down below, and comment what things you want to see. Thanks for being here.



My Life Monday #12

How to Survive High School: Confidence

Hello people of the internet, welcome back to my page. I hope you’re doing okay. Today we’re talking about a key quality in the process of surviving high school, confidence. Confidence is key even if you don’t have it.

Confidence (according to wikipedia):

1. the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something; firm trust.

2. the state of feeling certain about the truth of something.

3. a feeling of self-assurance arising from one’s appreciation of one’s own abilities or qualities.

Normally when we think of confidence we think of the third definition, but it’s really a bit of everything when you think about it. Confidence is about being secure in yourself, and being able to trust, appreciate, and love yourself. Of course it’s much easier to have confidence in yourself when you know yourself, but let’s be honest if you’re in high school you’re trying to figure out who you are along with how to do more than order Taco Bell in Spanish… I hate Spanish.

Confidence isn’t about even being cool, it’s about being yourself and not giving a crap about what others think. That can be so hard, but you also got to remember although this feeling and state of mind is completely internal, it helps to have good people around you, that lift you up.

To have confidence:

-You need to love and appreciate yourself:

Don’t try to be like everyone else you have to be yourself and truly know that, that’s cool

-Surround yourself with people:

Not just any people, people that, love, appreciate, accept you, and lift you up

-You need to believe in yourself:

As the definitions stated confidence is also having firm belief in something. You need to believe in yourself when doing anything don’t make stupid doubting jokes, believe in yourself.

Confidence isn’t like magic, it takes time, but the most important thing to remember is what my band teacher always tells us “Fake it until you make it” same thing with confidence, and it will come.

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My Life Monday #11


That was fun. Imagine me yelling. I love to yell.

Anyways… let’s get down to business. *trying so hard not to make the Disney reference*

Anxiety. We all have it. That’s what this post is about. Some have it worse than others, but it is indeed inside all of us. Mine came out of me during high school. It was bad freshman year, and it’s the reason why I never look forward to school and I need a ‘safety person’ if I’m going to be in big crowds. I start to shake, my mind starts racing, my body overreacts and I start to cry. That’s how my body reacts and when I’m alone and my body is starting to do all the signs I know I got to get away, I got to get away from people as fast as possible. Nobody can see this. This also occurs when I am under huge amounts of stress, which means I undergo this at least once a week.

Some people experience this so badly they have no more control over their body, I understand that, but I never feel it as bady as that.

When I go through this I have to be alone. I go into the band room closet, lock the door, put in my ear buds, and play my guitar. I need my time alone, and at this point my friends understand and they go through the motions with me. Because it’s okay to be alone.

I spend my time alone, but then the next day I come back to my friends. We go back to the usual hanging out at lunch. But every now and then when I don’t feel okay or I start to cry in the closet having a hug from Victor never kills. What I’m trying to say is that it’s okay be alone sometimes, but you can’t spend your entire life alone. If your friends don’t lift you up, and they don’t help you when your brain gets too out of control you might need some new people in your life. But don’t spend the rest of your life alone high school can actually be a great experience, but if you lock yourself in the closet the whole time nothing will ever be fun, and anxiety will take over your life. Don’t let it do that to you, you have a good life, so live it, and it is okay to talk to people about these things. In fact the right friends will always help you in these situations. But don’t spend all of high school mourning in a closet, and talk to someone about it hearing another voice than one that’s coming from your brain makes all the difference.

And another thing. It’s okay to feel sad for no reason. I tend to and I don’t even know why. But you can’t let any depression like that eat you up because then you can’t enjoy all the beauty that life has to offer. Personally in high school you need to find the people you love, and you need to find the thing you love. For me its Cross Country and Band… or Guitar. Cross Country is a lot of pain but it gets everything off my mind, besides our team is like family. A love hate relationship with running really bonds people together, heck, we even went out for breakfast last Friday before school. Band is also the light of my high school life. They play at the varsity football game, so we all hang out during the JV game. Mrs. Cassidy’s office is like home. We sit around watching Netflix laying out on her couch eating pizza pockets. It’s literally home. Which makes sense because Mrs. Cassidy is Band Mom as we call her. I’m not technically in band, but I’m in band as the honorary member as me and my friends call it. Band makes me feel at home and we live by our on rules, and finding a place, or even those people in your high school makes everything better, and it makes any problems fade away.

High school has so many positives although teenagers are stupid. But just like everything else in life you get out of it what you put into it, and you can make it a good experience if you choose to make it one. And step one to making it a good experience is by slaying your dragons by yourself.

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High school so far: Blackout Dance, Comic Con with my friends, White Out/First Home Football Game with the band, My First 5k

Life is an amazing thing.


My Life Monday #10

Hello people of the internet.

You know, it’s weird when people from school say they read my blog or they actually like it, because I think so little about my writing. In all honesty I don’t think I’m that good. But some of my friends were asking if their is going to be a The Telepathy Twins chapter 12 but, no. It is a short story series, and no that I don’t have to focus on carrying that story I can come up with other things, but I’m trying not to make something fake.

So hmm cross country. Oh my gosh, it’s worth being sore every now and then because every day at practice we go swimming. It’s so hot where I live right now and I love swimming! I am one of those people that feels a connection with the water, I don’t know, I’m a mermaid so I guess it makes sense.

Oh yeah, black out dance. That was fun. Although the DJ sucked, It was great being with friends, and me being me I brought my polaroid camera with me.

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And another thing, I am obsessively watching Supernatural. I can’t really talk much because I’m supposed to be writing a 7 paragraph research essay.

So I wish you all a good life. If you find me tolerable like and subscribe for more.

Catch you on the flip side.



My Life Monday #9

August 8, 2017

So I endured the first two days of school last week. It was good. I saw my friends but all the people were so overwhelming. I forgot my pop socket, so I had a hard time on the first day. I was fidgeting a lot, and so I flipped my hair without even realizing it, but I needed something to distract me.

I know everything is going to be okay, but it’s hard not to be anxious when every teacher is trying their very best to intimidate. But that’s fine because I live by the fake it till you make it quote and that’s what gives me confidence. Most of my teachers seem cool, but I’m playing two sports, and showing five species of animals at 3 different county fairs. I’m also taking all advanced classes, so it’s just a lot to think about but I can handle it.

Finally lunch came. I was still pretty anxious. Victor (my best friend since 2nd grade) hugged me for like a minute straight. I’m not always a huge fan of physical contact, especially at school when my guard is completely up and I don’t talk but that hug made all the stress go away.

Guitar was okay, but being in the band room with Mrs. Cassidy as my teacher always makes me feel so much better.

The day went on, I  made it through, then I had my cross practice. Cross Country is great it’s such a small team, and a love hate relationship with running and feeling all that pain binds you together. So I always feel a lot better, when I run I’m in so much pain but I always feel so much better at the end.

This weekend I went over to my Fair Bestfriend’s house. She’s going to college. It was amazing to spend so much time with her. I just was present with her it felt amazing. I love her so much, and I’m so proud of her and I can’t wait to see her chase her dreams.

Remember, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. Also remember life can be very crazy and it can make you very anxious so maybe just step back, but don’t miss out on everything life has to offer just because you’re scared.

So I guess I’ll catch you on the flip side.


Fitness Friday #5

Hey guys, it’s Issie so today I wanted to talk to you about going back to school. I have to do it, sadly. I hate going back to school, but that’s just me. Anyways one of my BIGGEST struggles in school, well I have many when it comes to school but one of them is eating. I have livestock and I love doing my makeup for school, so I never have time for breakfast, I also never eat lunch because maybe I don’t have money, or I don’t want to eat the crap they call pizza (but we all know it’s not) so then I go around begging for food all day, and when I do finally get home I binge and I watch all the YouTube videos in my subscription box and eat everything in sight.

That is so bad for your metabolism, because eating proportional meals around the same time every day actually boosts your metabolism, and that’s what gives you a flatter belly rather than eating one meal a day or crash dieting.

So because of that, I’m going to list some easy healthy recipes for breakfast and lunch.

Now before I start I’d like to mention I love to meal prep, meaning I make the meals on Sunday so I don’t have to make them throught the week.


  1. Toast a piece of bread, cover it with peanut butter (or nutella but peanut butter is healthier, remember to use it sparingly.) And cover it with whatever fruit you have in the house, maybe some chia seeds, or honey, or granilla. This is a light breakfast that gives you protein.
  2. One of my favorites is greek yogurt, but you can add strawberries, berries granola, chia seeds and more. I find that when you have a bowl of yogurt with fruit, I can last for hours because of the protein.
  3. Oatmeal, everyone knows how to make it. I personally like making it with pieces of green apple and adding cinnamon, and with the rest of the apple I have it as a side and I put peanut butter on it too.
  4. This isn’t exactly food but I love making a good green tea in the morning. Green tea can clean out some of your toxin as well as it gives you a slight caffeine boost if you are someone who likes drinking their tea with sugar, try replacing that with lemon juice instead. The lemon juice is also good for your system, and it clears out your skin.

Now all of these breakfast ideas aren’t exactly good ideas to meal prep because they won’t stay fresh, but that’s fine because all of these ideas take less than 10 minutes to make.

Lunch: (now this is the stuff you really meal prep)

  1. Turkey wrap- take a tortilla add some cheese, lettuce, tomato, sour cream, turkey, and whatever else you want. This is an easy meal to make, and it is easy to meal prep. I’d also have that with chips and hummus or whatever other side you want.
  2. Noodle salad- with one of those kitchen aid things that makes you cut cucumbers into noodle form. I make lot’s of salads with just one cucumber and add whatever other items you like in your salad. Personally I like adding some meat to mine, but that’s just for some extra protein.

I also add a small snack in with my lunch because I am always starving towards the end of the day.

School can sometimes suck, and although this post isn’t exactly exciting I hope you guys are eating well, and feeling good. Hope you have a good year this year too.

Catch you on the flip side!


March 7, 2017 10:14am

Or assignments aren’t ready to do, and JoJo hasn’t mentioned if he wants to play Pokémon Showdown, so here I am. How are you? I am doing just dandy, I finally finished chapter four of The Telepathy Twins going up on Friday, and I am somewhat excited for it.

Today is going to be an epic night, I’m staying here after school to go to JoJo’s volleyball game, then grabbing my burrito and playing some dodgeball. Our FFA group is having a Burrito Dodge Ball meeting, where we have a dodge ball tournament, and we have a burrito truck come to the school. My friends and I are struggling to find two more people to get on our team, but whatever.

I can’t stop listening to Ed Sheeran’s new album, I don’t know what it is. I think my favorite song is by far “What Do I Know?” It’s just got good morals, good words, and I love to dance to it. Second favorite is hands down “Galway Girl” I will spontaneously pause in class and sing “SHE PLAYED A FIDDLE IN AN IRISH BAND, BUT SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH AND ENGLISHMAN, KISSED HER ON THE NECK, AND THEN I TOOK HER BY THE HAND AND SAID BABY I JUST WANT TO DANCE. MY PRETTY LITTLE GALWAY GIRL” while also singing the guitar patterns… I am an insult to all guitarists, but that’s okay.

I want to thank all the people that like, and subscribe to my blog. To be honest I love this blog so much, and I am constantly on it, and trying to promote myself as a writer, and photographer. So thank you to all who comment, like, and subscribe, even the people who take the time to creep my photography instagram. I post a picture every time I post something. I have had this blog going for three months now. I don’t has as much foot traffic as I did when I started this blog, but I have came a long way. I don’t have a billion subscribers, but I have enough to be able to reach people, and make a difference with my writing.

Don’t want to give an awkward promo, but my best friend whom I always talk about, JoJo has started a blog and decided he wanted to continue with it. But he wants to know that if he puts the effort in it will be worth it, so if he gets one comment he will try and make this a constant thing. he’s insanely creative (emphasis on the insane), he’s got the best stories, so maybe give him a chance.

I have been trying so hard to get my grades up. I am on average one percent away from getting an A in all of my classes, and it is tearing me apart, but if I’m being honest I don’t have time to worry about it, I just have to get my work done.

Not to mention on top of the grad thing, I have been trying to eat healthy, but it’s hard when you’re a hungry teen and it’s lunch. Now I’m just trying to eat a shiz ton of protein to keep my energy up so I feel no need for food. Yesterday I did and intense ab, leg, and glute workout. I was so proud I did it, because it almost took two hours and a half… and I am so sore. But I enjoy working out, and as weird as it sounds I don’t like to eat junk food, I’ve heard that that’s something that happens when you start to exercise and eat healthy more. When I eat junk food my body instantly gets bloated, and I don’t enjoy it once so ever.

If you read this far, you are the true MVP’s, this is the first time in a few weeks I’ve been able to go on a life rant, hope you enjoyed.

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February 19, 2017 8:36pm

Now that winter is here, as lovely and beautiful as it is, sometimes it has you boxed in, so after church I spent an hour calling up friends. I was on the phone for an hour with JoJo listening to him and his sister argue about what to watch on TV, and added to the conversation a bit. Until Andrea and I figured out we can hang out.

If you remember her, I talked about her a bit. I gave her some advice a few times. We decided to hang out, then found out we’re only seven minutes away from each other.

We talked for awhile threw a yoga ball at each others faces (long story) took Snap Chats, made mug cakes, watched Finding Dory, and we took Polaroid pictures.

It’s a thing I do. When people come over to my house I take a polaroid of them, or with them, and the n put it on the wall. At the end of the year you reflect upon all the good times and all the people that love you and I put them in my journal.

I bring my camera with me everywhere, but I still don’t have any good shots of anything. Everything is fodder and almond trees are starting to blossom. That’s how you know it’s spring where I live. When the almond trees start to bloom. But now that the almond trees were blooming, and everything was flooded, you’d think you can find something.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at three in the morning and take my Dad to the airport. The airport is so far away though, that if it isn’t raining, it would be the perfect time to go on a photography trip.

My Mom and I we’re wandering around, and we found this spectacular view. We wrote it down in case we could ever make it back, but so far we haven’t so maybe if we’re lucky tomorrow and the weather grants us, I’ll get some great spring shots.

I hope you have a good week. I am going to have a good week this week, because I have Monday off EYY.

Catch ya on the flip side!




February 17, 2017 9:28am

Good morning world. Where I live all we did our last four years was pray for rain, now you need to pray for no floods. Man, God works in mysterious ways, but their is nothing to fear, because when He wiped the world and Noah had to take all the animals on the ark God showed him a rainbow at the end of the 40 days and 40 nights representing his promise to the world. The promise is that he would never do anything like that again, so hang in there California.

Right now I’m sitting in the chair in my room, right next to my window listening to the wind howl, and my trees suffer looking like they’re almost gonna break. It’s Friday I think. I don’t know, once I’m out of school, I never know what day of the week it is. I’m not cool enough to ditch, but our school combined a few holiday breaks so we got out Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday (duh), and Monday. It won’t stop raining. I love the rain, and we need the rain even if it is more than necessary you have to know that God is going to make something good come out of this.

On the down side this means I can’t go on a photoshoot like I was wanting to this weekend to change up the theme of my website for spring. I also can’t hang out with JoJo because he’s in Modesto, and I was going to work out at the school with Victor, and run the stairs at the football field at my school, but it’s raining.

The cold has always made me feel fresh and has made me feel fantastic and motivated, but right now I am having a hard time finding motivation to work out, or even write! Writing is my everything and as I was writing this I realized I had three drafts of posts I tried to write, but lost motivation. I love to work out, it’s what I look forward to, but I can’t bring myself to do it. But if we’re being honest though if I actually went to the gym or to the weight room I would be going full out just because the machines make me work more, but these at home workouts are getting old because I have to be self motivated. If that makes sense. If I go to the gym the machines make me do the work, but if I’m at home I have to be motivated because all of my workouts are basically body body based, so I have to make my body do the workouts on it’s own. I think that’s an only me problem, but whatever.

I am just so happy I don’t have school. Sleeping in was long overdue.

This past week I’ve been playing a lot of Pokémon Showdown, and writing poetry. If you want to see some, comment bellow, but I don’t know that’s a super weird combination of hobbies. Not to mention I’ve been trying to play “Peace of Mind” by Boston on electric guitar, but I can’t find any videos or guitar tab, or sheet music that actually help.

I’ve also had this weird obsession lately with wanting to try winged liner for everyday looks, and I’ll watch tutorials, and look at pictures, I know how to do it, but I don’t. For one I don’t have a good liner, I have eye liner, but not a good liner. I also haven’t been wearing makeup to school much. I just do my eyebrows, because I have none, curl my hair, then I go to school. But when I think about putting on my foundation to to a full face of makeup for doing eyeliner and eye shadow, I just get lazy thinking about blending my Tarte Shape Tape concealer because it’s so thick, and I think that I’m just so lazy.

Being unmotivated is fantastic. (High levels of sarcasm.)

But aside for being unmotivated about some things I have tried doing a few things new, and pre writing some things. I am not sure what all I’m going to do for Mondays, but I’m liking Short Story Fridays, but sometimes it’s hard with school to write a new chapter and make it something meaningful. Maybe it will get better now that soccer is over, sadly, but I am tring to recognize my limitations. I am going to start doing quotes on Wednesdays. I don’t know if you’ll like it but I’m going to do it. So I ‘ll either just put a quote and a picture together, or insert a quote and explain/reflect upon it. Finally Fridays are Photography Fridays. So I will eather have a group of pictures, and tell the story behind them, or I do stories like The Telepathy Twins, that I tell with pictures.

I haven’t gotten much foot traffic on the site, but I’m worried. It might be better once I change the site for spring, but I can’t go on anny photoshoots any time soon. Although I think at rainy photoshoot might be so fantastic, but I don’t think my parents would let me. They have strong paranoia about me getting sick. Mom I know you’re reading this, hi, I love you, you paranid amazing mom you.

God bless you, and I hope you are doing good.

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Catch ya on the flip side!




February 10, 2017 9:51am

I have the hardest time keeping my life together. I’m doing okay, but I’m just trying to keep up assignments and make it through the endless labyrinth of clothes that is my room. Mentally I am doing just fine, but physically I am blessed that today is Friday.

Before I go to school, I check my computer to see the blog, probably one of the reasons why I’m almost late, and I have found that two more people are subscribed to my blog now, and several people find the need to like my blogs and I am very grateful about that.

I started writing this blog yesterday if I’m being honest, but once again life decided I wouldn’t post it.

Soccer season ends on monday… How insane is that? Maybe just for me. Normally I am the strong introvert with high anxiety of talking to people, but I was a part of a team. It felt great. I’ve been playing soccer for over six years now. This was the first year I got to be apart of a school team. Now, if I ever felt anxiety while talking to new people I sure as heck feel it when I talk to people from my school. When, in actuality I didn’t fit in all completely, it’s high school, but I made a few new friends, and got closer with a few people. I can say that #6 Andrea is one of my friends, we would walk to McDonalds when practice was canceled and talk, and I would give her advice, and I got closer with Itzel whom I have known forever, she was actually the Coach’s Assistant. Her sister got on the team, but she didn’t. We had a great time together, she would braid almost the entire team’s hair before games. I remember our P.E teacher got mad when Itzel showed up in the girls locker room when we were changing getting ready for a game, because where the team goes, Itzel goes too. Or as we call her Huera.

JoJo must be feeling it too, his last basketball game is on Tuesday. Although, he’s going out for gus volleyball, I have heard from many accounts that he is “kick ass at volleyball.” Excited to see some of his games, it’s a good reason to get out of the house, because it sounds like once soccer season’s over it’s all about FFA and livestock, I agree to disagree. It’s about having some livestock that will change the game for the three county fairs that I am attending, to eat healthy and stay fit for cross country, to continue to have a relationship with my friends, and to grow and expand with this blog. Now, that sounds good do me.

We have a five day weekend coming up this week, and my parents promised me a photography trip, so be expecting a change in the site, and some spring pictures. Maybe, just maybe, I can keep up with my stories once soccer season is over too, maybe I’ll have time to make a schedule, maybe I’m asking for too much, but I just want to try.

I guess Valentines Day is coming up. I could care less, I’m not exactly wanting a boyfriend. I enjoy being single, but every single person gets a little lonely now and then, but when I think about all the political drama it is to have a boyfriend in highschool I realize it’s too much work. I barely understand how to say ‘hello’ to a human. If you’re one of those that feels lonely, don’t be. If you have good friends make them your valentine, but I think the whole holiday is stupid, but I’m just in it for all the candy that goes for discount the next day. Ooh maybe they’ll have those huge teddy bears on sale the day after valentines!

I am so all over the place, like usual, but like usual, please subscribe for more, and if you find me tolerable please like.

Catch ya on the flip side!