My Life Monday #11

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE INTERNET

That was fun. Imagine me yelling. I love to yell.

Anyways… let’s get down to business. *trying so hard not to make the Disney reference*

Anxiety. We all have it. That’s what this post is about. Some have it worse than others, but it is indeed inside all of us. Mine came out of me during high school. It was bad freshman year, and it’s the reason why I never look forward to school and I need a ‘safety person’ if I’m going to be in big crowds. I start to shake, my mind starts racing, my body overreacts and I start to cry. That’s how my body reacts and when I’m alone and my body is starting to do all the signs I know I got to get away, I got to get away from people as fast as possible. Nobody can see this. This also occurs when I am under huge amounts of stress, which means I undergo this at least once a week.

Some people experience this so badly they have no more control over their body, I understand that, but I never feel it as bady as that.

When I go through this I have to be alone. I go into the band room closet, lock the door, put in my ear buds, and play my guitar. I need my time alone, and at this point my friends understand and they go through the motions with me. Because it’s okay to be alone.

I spend my time alone, but then the next day I come back to my friends. We go back to the usual hanging out at lunch. But every now and then when I don’t feel okay or I start to cry in the closet having a hug from Victor never kills. What I’m trying to say is that it’s okay be alone sometimes, but you can’t spend your entire life alone. If your friends don’t lift you up, and they don’t help you when your brain gets too out of control you might need some new people in your life. But don’t spend the rest of your life alone high school can actually be a great experience, but if you lock yourself in the closet the whole time nothing will ever be fun, and anxiety will take over your life. Don’t let it do that to you, you have a good life, so live it, and it is okay to talk to people about these things. In fact the right friends will always help you in these situations. But don’t spend all of high school mourning in a closet, and talk to someone about it hearing another voice than one that’s coming from your brain makes all the difference.

And another thing. It’s okay to feel sad for no reason. I tend to and I don’t even know why. But you can’t let any depression like that eat you up because then you can’t enjoy all the beauty that life has to offer. Personally in high school you need to find the people you love, and you need to find the thing you love. For me its Cross Country and Band… or Guitar. Cross Country is a lot of pain but it gets everything off my mind, besides our team is like family. A love hate relationship with running really bonds people together, heck, we even went out for breakfast last Friday before school. Band is also the light of my high school life. They play at the varsity football game, so we all hang out during the JV game. Mrs. Cassidy’s office is like home. We sit around watching Netflix laying out on her couch eating pizza pockets. It’s literally home. Which makes sense because Mrs. Cassidy is Band Mom as we call her. I’m not technically in band, but I’m in band as the honorary member as me and my friends call it. Band makes me feel at home and we live by our on rules, and finding a place, or even those people in your high school makes everything better, and it makes any problems fade away.

High school has so many positives although teenagers are stupid. But just like everything else in life you get out of it what you put into it, and you can make it a good experience if you choose to make it one. And step one to making it a good experience is by slaying your dragons by yourself.

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High school so far: Blackout Dance, Comic Con with my friends, White Out/First Home Football Game with the band, My First 5k

Life is an amazing thing.

-Issie

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Quote Wednesday #22

“Because I’m feeling some kind of shake without you / Uh huh I think you’re moving in too close / but I think that it’s my body wanting it the most like / uh huh I don’t kow what it is I feel / but I know it’s my emotions going in for the kill like uh huh.”

“Uh huh” by Julia Michaels

Photography Friday #3

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This is the story of my fist FFA market goat project and my first FFA trip to the fair. I have been showing since I was nine so I am used to fair vibes, this wasn’t my first rodeo. I had a lot of help from my Ag. Adviser but I also tried to be independent. A lot of perpetration went into this project (mainly because I had raised this goat since he was born). It was two weeks ago we went to fair. Fair is a really cool experience, junk food, roller coasters, and animal exhibits and shows. It can be a very fun and sometimes educational experience. You keep your animals in barns, and you basically hang out outside all day doing absolutely nothing. One of my friends thought we hung out in a room with WiFi and AC… nope it’s almost like camping, but you come back home every night, then come back bright and early.

You weigh your animals one day, then you sit around awhile until you show. When you show you are in uniform almost all day, and where I live it’s normally about 90 degrees when I show, but it’s worth it, it’s really fun. Then you sit around some more for a few more days until auction when all your hard work gets rewarded.

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This was my reward

My showday was all day. I was so tired at the end of it. I won 3rd in showmanship, 3rd in market, and first in breeding. and the picture right there was my reward. At fair the most important thing to get is a cinnamon roll. They are the best things ever and I look forward to them every year all year long, and so I had a cinnamon roll with ice cream, and that was the best thing of life.

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My placing

You have to be at the fair every day all day, and it’s fun because you’re with your friends. We snap chat each other or play cards all day long, or sometimes we’ll even pr-ooze through the fair grounds looking at all the free stuff, educational exhibits, and how much fried stuff is offered.

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Accurate representation of how tired you are and how you’re willing to sleep anywhere.

On an added note to the picture above I tend to do a lot of reading and sleeping at fair… more sleeping than anything. I made a bed out of a box slightly shorter than my length and a pillow from a bag of hay… good times, good times.

There’s always free stuff that people use to promote their business, and this year a tire center had a Frisbee, so my friends and I would go out in a grass area and throw that Frisbee all over the place, and when it got lost, we would go get another one.

I am a sucker for fast rides and I love a good adrenaline rush. Lots of my friends (despite the agricultural background of our hometown) have never been to a fair, and have no idea what it’s like so this year I took them on what I call a ride night. We pay to eat junk food, buy cheap lame stuff, and almost puke on roller coasters. The day that we went on was the day after JoJo’s birthday so I just called this his birthday party.

Bright and early I picked he hyperactive boys up, and we went down to the fair grounds listening to my sick playlists (Spotify ispat1000). They ran around like dogs, they helped me change the goat’s waters and their feed. We played the game ‘Ninja War’ so much that you would think we were little kids, and we walked around the fair so much. At the fair we went to they had an abundance of anime march so the boys and I went crazy. Of course, I bought a Fairy Tail necklace.

We went on all the rides… except the zipper… the zipper can burn in hell that concussion giver! We had a blast, when JoJo and John weren’t about to puke. Juan and I were having a lit time and we were dabbing on every ride.

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Far left with the Gryffindor hat I gave him is JoJo, the creep with his tongue sticking out is Juan, the girl with the double chins is me, and the boy eating my hair in the back is John.

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While we were there we decided to play some hopelessly riged games, and John actually won! (Shocker to everyone) He won the dinosaur you see, we named her Dina… yew we checked it is a she… originally we thought she was a he and the original name was Dino but I saw it more fitting to change her name.

The little stuffed animal polar bear is Polly… Polly the Polar Bear. Juan won that little guy and decided to give it to his girlfriend… but he eventually forgot to do that.

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Me in my uniform for auction

Looking back that was such a good time with all of them, I just wished Victor could have came, because then the insanity squad would have been complete. I was so caught up in the moment of having fun with them but reflecting back it really felt like a great trip with such good vibes. Love you boys although I doubt any of them are reading this. Ah, my boys, my closest friends.

Good vibes=Good life

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

April 10, 2017 5:09pm

What up party people?

I’ve never said that before, and I doubt anyone would ever want me to say it again. Life has been pretty busy and yet so dull lately. I don’t do my daily workouts every day because livestock showing is upon us. At my school’s FFA program you can go to three fairs. I happen to be going to all three of those fairs and showing three specis of animals.

Fair #1:

-Breeding goats

-Market goats

Fair #2:

-Breeding goats

-Market goats

-Horse

Fair #3:

-Breeding goats

-Horse

-Possibly a dairy goat

-Possibly a buck (uncastrated male goat)

If you can’t tell I am totally into the boat biz. I have three does (female goats) at my house, whom I have to breed this summer so I can have my own product of genetics to show next year. One of those does I plan to show at three fairs. I also have two wethers (castrated male goats). They are for market purposes (by the way goat meat is high in protein and super healthy). But long story short I have been showing goats for six years now, so at this point I breed my animals and do some real competitive stuff. Because I am so competitive and I want to win I put hours and hours in on these goats, and let me tell you, it gets tiring. I also have to work with my horse, which I have a lot of fun with, but it is time consuming. Finally I gave my heifer, that I plan to put into the beef bred heifer program that my FFA offers next year. With almost everything I do, I am in it to win it, and it takes time to make something worth winning, but I love to do it.

I also have been trying super hard to pull my grades up, and you guys probably know that I haven’t been that fluid with my blog posts, but that is because I have been doing so much.

I have so much I want to write about, I feel very inspired, but by the time I get to the blog on my to do list I am totally out like a light.

I try and go to school dressing somewhat fashion forward I guess you can say. I never do, but if I dress like I’m awake it forces me to stay awake sometimes.

Life is going pretty great, but if I’m being honest I still need to get myself straight with God. Just to start diving into him, if that makes any sense, a My Faith Monday is coming soon. As well as a Music Monday because The Chainsmokers just released a new album. <3.

I feel like I am starting to let myself be slightly extroverted more and more. I will never be an extroverted person, nor do I want to be, but just some of the traits that they have, are traits I want to resemble.

JoJo and I still fight all the time, but that’s just because we’re basically siblings. The other night I tried to play PokΓ©mon Planet with him. I knew where I needed to go to get my starter pokΓ©mon, I just didn’t know how to get them, so I sat there for awhile until Joe came to the starting village to help me out, and we texted back and forth as I was training my Charizard, he was just beating the crap out of the little lvl. 4-5 pokΓ©mon arround with his lvl. 17. Eventually my computer died. Poor Fitz (the name of my computer, named after Fitz from Marvel’s Agents of Shield). I could not re charge it because I had loaned my charger to a friend, who had it over the weekend. Today is Monday, and I got it back.

Tonight I want to do some dancing, take a shower, then have an early night, because I haven’t been able to really take time to chill or do something I wanted to do, and dancing is very relaxing to me, so I’mma have fun with that.

Sorry that this post was so all over the place, but I felt it would be nice if I updated, besides, it was therapeutic for me too. Chapter I don’t know, I think five of It Girl just went up, so check that out, if you don’t remember what happened last chapter, in the search bar on the right of this post type It Girl Chapter Four, or you can just read my post called Chapter Reviews to keep up with the stories.

If you find me tolerable please like and subscribe. The subscribe/follow button is on the home page on my blog just below the section on my music, so please subscribe, and to like, the button is down below. Thanks to everyone that is supporting me, I love to write and this is what I hope to do for the rest of my life.

See you on Wednesday, catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

Photography Friday #2

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Awhile ago, my mom and I were out looking at livestock, and while we were on our excursion out, we found a beautiful place with rolling hills, and beautiful mountains behind it. We decided that one day we would have to go and look at the place.

We found the place during winter, and we went back in spring. Where I live it was raining more than I could describe, so the change between winter and spring was quite beautiful.

Our day started at 5am and we were on the road by 5:30. I brought my Nikon camera Brendon (More about my camera type and full name in my about tab). I must say Brendon is a camera that focuses more on the glow of a picture. When editing and taking a picture there are many aspects about the picture but one of them for example is contrast. You have the contrast which creates lines that make objects in a picture crisp and visible, and my camera I find has more of a glow quality, which means that when I take a picture it blends the lines, makes everything much brighter, and makes things look more as I call, angelic. Glow quality in a picture makes them lovely, but they’re not good for all types shots. I love photography but this camera was like a small investment to see if I really loved it or not, and now that I do, I want to invest in more, and a good camera, but I am still a beginner learning as much as I can about this art technique.

Anyways. We were on the road to only God knows where. Listening to my Pump Up Pop playlist (made for positive motivation, working out and good vibes), and my Good Vibes playlist (self explanatory purpose) on my Spotify. My spotify is ‘ispat1000’, I don’t care if this is a self promo because I have good taste in music. I listen to rock, pop, christian, country, christian rap, rap, hip hop, alternative, indie, disney music, classical music, contemporary music, screamo, classic rock, old 80’s and 70’s pop. I recently made a new playlist called ‘I was born in the wrong generation’ it has old music from classical music, to classic rock. I’m still in the process of making it, but I think it’s pretty dope. I want to listen to more R&B, and hip hop to be able to relate to my generation more, but I need people to drop some artists in the comments.

An hour into driving, screaming the lyrics to “Edge of Seventeen” by Stevie Nix. We passed by this one orchard where I screamed pull over. We got a nice road shot. Normally when I take pictures its out in the mountains, where I can get in the back of a pickup truck and take pictures. But this was more of a visible picture so my mom told me to get in the truck and put my head down. It was super funny. I took this picture of my feet to remember this stupid moment with my amazing mom.

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Eventually as we started driving we found another almond orchard, where I live they’re not that hard to find. When you find an almond orchard in the middle of nowhere you have to take a photo shoot. So I took some pictures of the blossoms, but the best part about it was I got the dew on the blossoms (which is now my home-page picture).

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I also started posing in the middle of this little abandoned road. Where my mom took some pictures of me and proceeded to ask “Are you going to look at the camera?!” I did not.

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Nope, did not look at the camera.

We kept driving and I don’t entirely remember everything but we just kept getting some amazing shots.

The rolling hills and the silhouettes of the mountains were absolutely beautiful.

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Towards the end of our adventure my Mom spotted a red tailed hawk sitting on top of one of the orchard tops. She turned around and told me to get in the back with my camera ready. I had no clue what was going on for a bit, but then I caught it. The red tailed hawk. It was beautiful. I only wish my camera could have captured it in better quality. It is one of the crowning jewels to my photography.

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All of these shots can be found on my instagram thatgirlissie. I post pictures every time I publish a blog post. Gradually as I edit those pictures, they are showing up there if you want to see more of my photography.

Thanks for reading, please like and subscribe for more. If you can give me tips for photography and names of artists that you love so I can find more music.

I hope you have a good live, and a amazing Friday.

Good Vibes=Good Life

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

Quotes Wednesday #5

“We can change this whole world with a piano, add a bass, some guitar, grab a beat, and away we go. I’m just a boy with a one man show no university no degree, but Lord knows. Everybody’s talking about exponential growth, and the stalk market crashing and their portfolio. Well, I’ll be sitting here with a song that I wrote singing love can change the world in a moment, but what do I know.”

-Ed Sheeran “What Do I Know?”

Music Monday #2

March 11, 2017

I am way too excited to write this, way too excited.

Hello you beautiful human beings and welcome t my second ever Music Monday. Today I am finally reviewing Ed Sheeran’s new album Divide. I listened to nothing but this album for a few weeks. My top favorite songs are:

  1. “What Do I Know?”
  2. “Galway Girl”
  3. “Barcelona”
  4. “Biba Be Ye Ye”
  5. “Happier”

I can adore every single one of those songs, but you probably wouldn’t read all of that so I am going to review my top five starting from number five, kinda like a countdown.

Note: I have never been a hard core Ed Sheeran fan before this album I’ve only know the songs “Photograph”, “Don’t”, and “Thinking Out Loud” by him. Now I’m willing to say I’m a part of his fandom, and I can’t wait to see where his music goes. I describe him as a sit down play guitar, and sing kind of performer but you need one of those in your life.

5. “Happier”, this song is one of Ed Sheeran’s signature sad, slow songs, with only him and his guitar. This song is about his ex being with a new man and about how she’s happier with him. He mentions that his friends claim that he will feel that sort of happiness again, but he says he was happier with her. It’s that hard in between time when you have to move on, but you can, and the other person that you cared about so much has already moved on without you. It’s a lovely song, if we’re being honest it sounds a bit like “Stay With Me” by Sam Smith. But I love the sound, it’s peaceful.

4. “Biba Be Ye Ye” I love singing, and it is so hard to sing this title. It sounds and feels very original and as a person that loves to dance, this song makes me want to move. It’s about I don’t know, absolute nonsense. He talks about basically being hungover and not being able to remember what happened last night. I don’t know, I love it. It also talks about how when you’re honest with yourself sometimes life sucks, but that’s okay because when you live, life can be great.

3. “Barcelona” by God I love this song. I cannot listen to this song without dancing, this song is my true weakness. He uses his voice in a different way to create a cool intro, then he just sings about living it up in Barcelona. It’s so upbeat it’s amazing I don’t know what to say. The instrumental has a sax, and I just love sax, sax is like the way to my heart. I have a friend that plays sax but that is besides the point. The best part of the entire song is when this acoustic british male starts speaking spanish. I know I am a gringa, but I can speak spanish very fluently but oh my gosh his spanish speaking is hilarious. I love Ed Sheeran.

2.”Galway Girl” Wow, I, I love this song. It really shows some of his roots, and uses a fiddle, and I loves me some fiddle too. I want to be that Galway girl, damn. I always randomly break into song slinging the intro. I find it funny when he tries to rap, it’s funny with his accent, but I love it. It’s adorable. I listened to him play this song live and it was so good. For a guy playing a fast song with different instruments, it was amazing. He kept up with his rhythm so well with his guitar and his voice. Songs always sound different live, and over video and it was amazing.

1.”What Do I Know?” This song is definitely my favorite. It reminds me of “Castle On the Hill” I didn’t consider that song in the my top five list because it already came out the month before. This song give the best vibes, and shares fantastic value that I think we often forget just love, understanding, positivity. It actually gives me goosebumps when I listen to it. I’ll probably make a Quotes Wednesday out of the chorus.

Comment below what your favorite type of music is, and your current favorite song, if you’re anything like me your favorite song changes a lot.

I could always do a cover video if you would like, I can kinda play guitar, piano, and sing a little.

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

March 7, 2017 10:14am

Or assignments aren’t ready to do, and JoJo hasn’t mentioned if he wants to play PokΓ©mon Showdown, so here I am. How are you? I am doing just dandy, I finally finished chapter four of The Telepathy Twins going up on Friday, and I am somewhat excited for it.

Today is going to be an epic night, I’m staying here after school to go to JoJo’s volleyball game, then grabbing my burrito and playing some dodgeball. Our FFA group is having a Burrito Dodge Ball meeting, where we have a dodge ball tournament, and we have a burrito truck come to the school. My friends and I are struggling to find two more people to get on our team, but whatever.

I can’t stop listening to Ed Sheeran’s new album, I don’t know what it is. I think my favorite song is by far “What Do I Know?” It’s just got good morals, good words, and I love to dance to it. Second favorite is hands down “Galway Girl” I will spontaneously pause in class and sing “SHE PLAYED A FIDDLE IN AN IRISH BAND, BUT SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH AND ENGLISHMAN, KISSED HER ON THE NECK, AND THEN I TOOK HER BY THE HAND AND SAID BABY I JUST WANT TO DANCE. MY PRETTY LITTLE GALWAY GIRL” while also singing the guitar patterns… I am an insult to all guitarists, but that’s okay.

I want to thank all the people that like, and subscribe to my blog. To be honest I love this blog so much, and I am constantly on it, and trying to promote myself as a writer, and photographer. So thank you to all who comment, like, and subscribe, even the people who take the time to creep my photography instagram. I post a picture every time I post something. I have had this blog going for three months now. I don’t has as much foot traffic as I did when I started this blog, but I have came a long way. I don’t have a billion subscribers, but I have enough to be able to reach people, and make a difference with my writing.

Don’t want to give an awkward promo, but my best friend whom I always talk about, JoJo has started a blog and decided he wanted to continue with it. But he wants to know that if he puts the effort in it will be worth it, so if he gets one comment he will try and make this a constant thing. http://www.chaoswriterblog.wordpress.com he’s insanely creative (emphasis on the insane), he’s got the best stories, so maybe give him a chance.

I have been trying so hard to get my grades up. I am on average one percent away from getting an A in all of my classes, and it is tearing me apart, but if I’m being honest I don’t have time to worry about it, I just have to get my work done.

Not to mention on top of the grad thing, I have been trying to eat healthy, but it’s hard when you’re a hungry teen and it’s lunch. Now I’m just trying to eat a shiz ton of protein to keep my energy up so I feel no need for food. Yesterday I did and intense ab, leg, and glute workout. I was so proud I did it, because it almost took two hours and a half… and I am so sore. But I enjoy working out, and as weird as it sounds I don’t like to eat junk food, I’ve heard that that’s something that happens when you start to exercise and eat healthy more. When I eat junk food my body instantly gets bloated, and I don’t enjoy it once so ever.

If you read this far, you are the true MVP’s, this is the first time in a few weeks I’ve been able to go on a life rant, hope you enjoyed.

If you find me tolerable please like and subscribe for more. If you get the chance also check out http://www.chaoswriterblog.wordpress.com .

Thanks, catch ya on the flip side.

-Issie