My Life Monday #9

August 8, 2017

So I endured the first two days of school last week. It was good. I saw my friends but all the people were so overwhelming. I forgot my pop socket, so I had a hard time on the first day. I was fidgeting a lot, and so I flipped my hair without even realizing it, but I needed something to distract me.

I know everything is going to be okay, but it’s hard not to be anxious when every teacher is trying their very best to intimidate. But that’s fine because I live by the fake it till you make it quote and that’s what gives me confidence. Most of my teachers seem cool, but I’m playing two sports, and showing five species of animals at 3 different county fairs. I’m also taking all advanced classes, so it’s just a lot to think about but I can handle it.

Finally lunch came. I was still pretty anxious. Victor (my best friend since 2nd grade) hugged me for like a minute straight. I’m not always a huge fan of physical contact, especially at school when my guard is completely up and I don’t talk but that hug made all the stress go away.

Guitar was okay, but being in the band room with Mrs. Cassidy as my teacher always makes me feel so much better.

The day went on, I  made it through, then I had my cross practice. Cross Country is great it’s such a small team, and a love hate relationship with running and feeling all that pain binds you together. So I always feel a lot better, when I run I’m in so much pain but I always feel so much better at the end.

This weekend I went over to my Fair Bestfriend’s house. She’s going to college. It was amazing to spend so much time with her. I just was present with her it felt amazing. I love her so much, and I’m so proud of her and I can’t wait to see her chase her dreams.

Remember, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. Also remember life can be very crazy and it can make you very anxious so maybe just step back, but don’t miss out on everything life has to offer just because you’re scared.

So I guess I’ll catch you on the flip side.

-Issie

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My Life Monday #6

July 2, 2017

Wooooooooooo. I don’t know. I’m just writing. This is how my mind works.

How are you? I’m doing well if you were curious. Having one of the greatest summers of my entire life.

Sorry for not posting on Friday this was my week:

Let’s start from what went down at the beginning of this week. Working out is so, so difficult right now. I am in so much pain, and working and working out twice a day is killer on me. I was alo in a little rut this week of the month, so I will hopefully be ready the next day.

Monday I was doing the best that I could, but I was also out riding my horse in the evening when it was cooler. I put on a good ride and my legs were screaming. But I think one of the best parts were I got to see one of my favorite people in the whole world. She is addicted to horse riding and I only see her once a year for fair, and it was amazing to see her.

Look, personally I am a goal oriented person and I am doing things all the time. It is so hard to be self motivated sometimes but I find that without even knowing I have to be around people that work hard and are goal oriented to and have a good energy that helps me. Most of my friends in school are honestly too young to be as self motivated as me, but they feel me with good vibes, but my older friends really push me and help me to push myself. It’s all just good vibes and it makes me happy.

We worked really hard on my horse riding skills so I could kill showmanship, and I gave it my all.

The next day was the horse show. I was up bright and early, got down to the show. My beautiful boy Halo was all ready to go. We won second in advanced, second in trail, second in equestrian, first in western pleasure, and first in horsemanship. It was amazing, I gave it my all, and I had such a good time. I was with this family that I only see once a year but all we did was lift each other up and congratulate each other, and we had an amazing time. Good vibes.

Wednesday, Thursday were surviving, but Friday. Friday I got to see somebody that I love very much. We have known each other since I was 9. She graduated this year and I absolutely love her. I slept over at her house for what was supposed to be one day, but ended up being two. We were clipping goats for fair, and I will tell you, that binds friends together. It was so amazing to be with her, and around her good energy. Her sister is also amazing and made funnel cakes. Uuuuugh so good. Because we’ve been going to fair together for years I felt comfortable with her family and their was no awkward period where you try and be on your best behavior, it was all super chill.

Nothing but good vibes and lots of goats. I can’t wait to see her at fair in a week, and again before she leaves to college.

Saturday and Sunday were spent clipping goats. My allergies were going off. But it was great being with those people and to sleep in my own bed.

So anyways that’s why I forgot to change the pictures a few days ago and yeah. Wow I’m such a good writer… and yeah. Okay I should stop while I’m ahead, catch ya on the flip side.

-Issie

Photography Friday #3

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This is the story of my fist FFA market goat project and my first FFA trip to the fair. I have been showing since I was nine so I am used to fair vibes, this wasn’t my first rodeo. I had a lot of help from my Ag. Adviser but I also tried to be independent. A lot of perpetration went into this project (mainly because I had raised this goat since he was born). It was two weeks ago we went to fair. Fair is a really cool experience, junk food, roller coasters, and animal exhibits and shows. It can be a very fun and sometimes educational experience. You keep your animals in barns, and you basically hang out outside all day doing absolutely nothing. One of my friends thought we hung out in a room with WiFi and AC… nope it’s almost like camping, but you come back home every night, then come back bright and early.

You weigh your animals one day, then you sit around awhile until you show. When you show you are in uniform almost all day, and where I live it’s normally about 90 degrees when I show, but it’s worth it, it’s really fun. Then you sit around some more for a few more days until auction when all your hard work gets rewarded.

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This was my reward

My showday was all day. I was so tired at the end of it. I won 3rd in showmanship, 3rd in market, and first in breeding. and the picture right there was my reward. At fair the most important thing to get is a cinnamon roll. They are the best things ever and I look forward to them every year all year long, and so I had a cinnamon roll with ice cream, and that was the best thing of life.

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My placing

You have to be at the fair every day all day, and it’s fun because you’re with your friends. We snap chat each other or play cards all day long, or sometimes we’ll even pr-ooze through the fair grounds looking at all the free stuff, educational exhibits, and how much fried stuff is offered.

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Accurate representation of how tired you are and how you’re willing to sleep anywhere.

On an added note to the picture above I tend to do a lot of reading and sleeping at fair… more sleeping than anything. I made a bed out of a box slightly shorter than my length and a pillow from a bag of hay… good times, good times.

There’s always free stuff that people use to promote their business, and this year a tire center had a Frisbee, so my friends and I would go out in a grass area and throw that Frisbee all over the place, and when it got lost, we would go get another one.

I am a sucker for fast rides and I love a good adrenaline rush. Lots of my friends (despite the agricultural background of our hometown) have never been to a fair, and have no idea what it’s like so this year I took them on what I call a ride night. We pay to eat junk food, buy cheap lame stuff, and almost puke on roller coasters. The day that we went on was the day after JoJo’s birthday so I just called this his birthday party.

Bright and early I picked he hyperactive boys up, and we went down to the fair grounds listening to my sick playlists (Spotify ispat1000). They ran around like dogs, they helped me change the goat’s waters and their feed. We played the game ‘Ninja War’ so much that you would think we were little kids, and we walked around the fair so much. At the fair we went to they had an abundance of anime march so the boys and I went crazy. Of course, I bought a Fairy Tail necklace.

We went on all the rides… except the zipper… the zipper can burn in hell that concussion giver! We had a blast, when JoJo and John weren’t about to puke. Juan and I were having a lit time and we were dabbing on every ride.

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Far left with the Gryffindor hat I gave him is JoJo, the creep with his tongue sticking out is Juan, the girl with the double chins is me, and the boy eating my hair in the back is John.

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While we were there we decided to play some hopelessly riged games, and John actually won! (Shocker to everyone) He won the dinosaur you see, we named her Dina… yew we checked it is a she… originally we thought she was a he and the original name was Dino but I saw it more fitting to change her name.

The little stuffed animal polar bear is Polly… Polly the Polar Bear. Juan won that little guy and decided to give it to his girlfriend… but he eventually forgot to do that.

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Me in my uniform for auction

Looking back that was such a good time with all of them, I just wished Victor could have came, because then the insanity squad would have been complete. I was so caught up in the moment of having fun with them but reflecting back it really felt like a great trip with such good vibes. Love you boys although I doubt any of them are reading this. Ah, my boys, my closest friends.

Good vibes=Good life

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

March 7, 2017 10:14am

Or assignments aren’t ready to do, and JoJo hasn’t mentioned if he wants to play Pokémon Showdown, so here I am. How are you? I am doing just dandy, I finally finished chapter four of The Telepathy Twins going up on Friday, and I am somewhat excited for it.

Today is going to be an epic night, I’m staying here after school to go to JoJo’s volleyball game, then grabbing my burrito and playing some dodgeball. Our FFA group is having a Burrito Dodge Ball meeting, where we have a dodge ball tournament, and we have a burrito truck come to the school. My friends and I are struggling to find two more people to get on our team, but whatever.

I can’t stop listening to Ed Sheeran’s new album, I don’t know what it is. I think my favorite song is by far “What Do I Know?” It’s just got good morals, good words, and I love to dance to it. Second favorite is hands down “Galway Girl” I will spontaneously pause in class and sing “SHE PLAYED A FIDDLE IN AN IRISH BAND, BUT SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH AND ENGLISHMAN, KISSED HER ON THE NECK, AND THEN I TOOK HER BY THE HAND AND SAID BABY I JUST WANT TO DANCE. MY PRETTY LITTLE GALWAY GIRL” while also singing the guitar patterns… I am an insult to all guitarists, but that’s okay.

I want to thank all the people that like, and subscribe to my blog. To be honest I love this blog so much, and I am constantly on it, and trying to promote myself as a writer, and photographer. So thank you to all who comment, like, and subscribe, even the people who take the time to creep my photography instagram. I post a picture every time I post something. I have had this blog going for three months now. I don’t has as much foot traffic as I did when I started this blog, but I have came a long way. I don’t have a billion subscribers, but I have enough to be able to reach people, and make a difference with my writing.

Don’t want to give an awkward promo, but my best friend whom I always talk about, JoJo has started a blog and decided he wanted to continue with it. But he wants to know that if he puts the effort in it will be worth it, so if he gets one comment he will try and make this a constant thing. http://www.chaoswriterblog.wordpress.com he’s insanely creative (emphasis on the insane), he’s got the best stories, so maybe give him a chance.

I have been trying so hard to get my grades up. I am on average one percent away from getting an A in all of my classes, and it is tearing me apart, but if I’m being honest I don’t have time to worry about it, I just have to get my work done.

Not to mention on top of the grad thing, I have been trying to eat healthy, but it’s hard when you’re a hungry teen and it’s lunch. Now I’m just trying to eat a shiz ton of protein to keep my energy up so I feel no need for food. Yesterday I did and intense ab, leg, and glute workout. I was so proud I did it, because it almost took two hours and a half… and I am so sore. But I enjoy working out, and as weird as it sounds I don’t like to eat junk food, I’ve heard that that’s something that happens when you start to exercise and eat healthy more. When I eat junk food my body instantly gets bloated, and I don’t enjoy it once so ever.

If you read this far, you are the true MVP’s, this is the first time in a few weeks I’ve been able to go on a life rant, hope you enjoyed.

If you find me tolerable please like and subscribe for more. If you get the chance also check out http://www.chaoswriterblog.wordpress.com .

Thanks, catch ya on the flip side.

-Issie

It Girl: Chapter Four

“Ouch”

“Oh, sorry”

“Hey”

“Oh, hey”

Annabelle looks in the mirror rehearsing a possible situation in the mirror. Anxiety takes you over, who knows who you can bump into. That’s normally her worst fear, having to make conversation, because she’s so bad at it. Normally when it comes to her thoughts she just writes them down.

“Okay, bye Dad, I’m going to school!” she leaves before he can reply.

She starts to walk, as she pulls out some ear buds, plugged into a small MP3 player. She listens to Ed Sheeran as she starts to think to herself it’s okay, everything will be okay. This will be okay, if you sit alone again you can get your homework done, everything that happens to you happens for reason, and you have to trust that something good will come out of this. Her normal morning ritual.

When she finally makes it to the parking lot, she starts to hid her eyes behind her hair, and hide her head over her hood, as she retreats to her usual place under the tree most distant from the school, but still technically on school grounds.

She’s given up all hope that anyone will come up to her to be friends as she writes once again.

The bell rings.

For a moment she watches all of the students rush to their classes like bees buzzing, then eventually she gets up to go to her English class.

Mrs. Lumos was her English teacher. She’s a huge Harry Potter fan, (probably because of her name.) So when you walk in you see the entire room looking like a muggle version of Hogwarts.

“Ear buds off Annabelle” Says Mrs. Lumos.

So Annabelle silently takes off her earbuds and takes her seat.

Everything that Mrs. Lumos says is just a blur to Annabelle, until the very end of class when Mrs. Lumos comes up to her.

“Annabelle, I just reviewed your last essay on your view of the human race, and I thought it was amazing! You know, you should really put this into our next open house, in fact, if you’re interested I’d love to make you a member of the Wanderlust Writers club.”

“No thanks Mrs. Lumos” She says in a soft tone thinking out what to say next.

“I write for myself, but thank you.” she adds on to her previous phrase.

“Well, if you change your mind PLEASE tell me” replied Mrs. Lumos.

Annabelle nodded.

After a long day, somehow Annabelle made it to lunch where she decided to go to the band room for a change instead of under the tree. Her worst fear was that she would meet up with Skyler again. It had been a month since they had last spoken, but that just makes it even more awkward.

“Hey” said Skyler from behind the cello. Her cheeks were flushed, half scared to death to say anything, but she thought it was the right thing to do after the last time they had met.

“Oh, hey” Annabelle responded exactly like she had rehearsed in the mirror before.

“I’m sorry I ditched you the last time I saw you, I…”

“It’s okay, it’s just, whatever.” Annabelle responded cutting her off.

“Well, since you’re here, you wanna hang out?” Skyler asked half scared to death.

“Shure.”

Neither of them had any idea where this was going to go, and neither of them know how to talk to each other, but it was worth the risk.

 

February 27, 2017

My Faith Monday #1

Hello everyone, I’m trying out My Faith Mondays for a chance. I think I totally have stuff to talk about. I have absolutely no clue where to start. Life has been good, but I don’t think my relationship with God has been as tight as it used to. I was seriously tossed into a hurricane last summer, and out of it all I was alone, but I figured out who I am, who I want to be, what I do and don’t like, what I believe in, and what I don’t, and so on, so fourth. One of the things I learned about myself is my top five fears.

  1. Not living
  2. Failure
  3. Being left
  4. Relationships
  5. Scorpions

So, I have randomly started being paranoid about my third worst fear, being left. I have been left by a lot of people last year, and it felt liberating, but I really cared about them. I have never had such a good set of friends until this year. Every other friend I had put me down. It hurt but I had nobody. Because of the summer I spent getting to know myself, I learned how to love myself, and adore being alone. But now that I have a good group of friends they mean so much to me. I’ve gotten close with a few of them. I’ve known my friend Victor since 2nd grade, and I actually confide in him sometimes
(surprising, because I have really bad trust issues). JoJo, now he’s my best friend. I’ve only known him this year, and to be honest I think he’s one of the best friends I’ve ever had, and as a friend I love him and all my boys to death. We have just finally started to connect without having to play truth in our conversations, we can actually talk, but like last time right when we both got to know each other, and I cared about the other person, they decided to leave. Now I am so afraid it’s going to happen.

Back to the paranoia, so now that I have a group of friends I really love I have been so worried that they’re going to leave. I know they most likely won’t but last time I loved my friends and they left. I am fine with being alone, but as I’ve said, I really care about these guys. I’ve been trying to do a short bible study on my mobile bible app, to help with my anxiety and today’s devotional brought up something so important. If I want to trust in God I have to actually let him be within me. I have to actually let my guard down. Anyone who actually knows me knows I have real trust issues, and to even let God in now that I think about it is difficult. I would be hanging out with my close friend my mind would tell me not to get to close, and not to get attached because they were all going to leave me. You’d think I’d have more faith and less fear in both my friends and my God.

I can’t believe myself. The guys and I hung out for a long time yesterday, and they put up with my annoying self, and my inability to play pool, and I still think that they don’t like me, and that they want to leave. I have that quality that sometimes annoys people, especially now that people are so sensitive.I don’t think I’d be able to handle being left again if anything did happen.

Even when I went to church the pastor was talking about telling the people you care about that you care about them. Who knows maybe this is my way of saying thank you, and I love you to my friends.

In the end I think I need to get out of my own head, and let God in, because being paranoid of  being left. I have never had such good friends that I could depend on until this year, and it means so much to me. I am grateful to be able to have them. Freaking anxiety making me get in my own head.

This might have been annoying, but I really needed to talk, thanks for reading this if you actually read it all. Please like and subscribe for more.

God be with you, have a good life, and catch ya on the flip side.

-Issie

 

 

February 25, 2017 11:25pm

Man was I determined to stay up past 8:30pm tonight.

Good day everyone! I sound like Joey Graceffa… I hope your day was good, mine was fantastic. If you care to hear about it, read on.

The day started at 5:30am… on a Saturday. I woke up early and eager (well, somewhat happy) looking forward to this photoshoot my Mom and I were going to go on. Wow, it was fantastic. I think I finally have the right stuff to change up the blog for spring! The trip was so much fun. It involved a lot of screaming “PULL OVER!” for this and that, but it was totally worth it. Some of it also involved riding in the very back of the pick up truck just to get the right shot. I remember I asked my Mom if she could take a picture of me. She agreed to, so I hopped into a position. “You’re not going to look at the camera?” she asked. I most certainly did not. In the end we got a lot of good pictures, one of which was a perfect high quality picture that my Mom took of me up close… with three chings. I looked fantastic. As usual. Getting to that scenic destination at first light was key, and it made all the difference in the world.

We listened to a lot of good music. I almost died when “Highway to Hell” came on. My Spotify is ispat1000 and I have such diverse taste, I am what my friends call me “Band Trash”.

I had a great time with my Mom, and for waking up so early I was doing just fine. We got home around 10:00am. When my father eagerly put us to work doing things around the house. I swear most of our ‘family bonding’ is normally found when we’re working.

With an hour and 3o minutes to spare I decided to get ready for my bestie JoJo’s ‘party’. Dude, I know you’re reading this, that was not a party, but it was the dopest hang out ever thanks bro. I got ready, and was honestly looking good. Now, I hang out with a lot of guys, and I am most definitely the short one of the group. I get picked on alot for it. But, that’s friendship. So, JoJo’s dad got in on it, and told me he got a special vegetarian pizza, and some salad for me, so I would grow. JoJo, tell him I said thanks for looking out for my health. Long story short I stuffed my face with meat lover’s pizza. We mainly hung out in JoJo’s garage which is a pretty dope hang out. Pool table, TV, video games, punching bag, lots of chairs, karaoke, and we had a speaker.

I learned how to play pool. I had no idea how to play the game, so I went up against my friend Victor who sort of knew how to play the game, and I won. I will forever rub that in his face, because that’s our friendship.

We watched Suicide Squad. Everyone had watched it except me. I didn’t cry. No way I was gonna cry in front of the guys! But I really liked it. We played more pool, drank a lot of soda and next thing you know it’s almost 11:00pm. So we sneak in a little karaoke for the road, then we part ways. But, I wasn’t about to leave without a polaroid.

In all honesty today was one of the best days that I’ve had in awhile, and I’m so blessed to be able to have them.

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Hope you have a good life, and catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

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Good Night, Good Vibes, and Good, Good People

 

Winter Homecoming 2k17

Photography Friday February 17, 2017

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Winter Homecoming 2K17

Picture one is my guy friends and I in Pre Wrap for our first winter homecoming. They asked for Pre Wrap and I told him that we had to take a picture together. These dudes are the coolest guys despite what the status quo of high school says. They treat me like one of the guys but respect me like I’m a woman. Ladies get yourself a man that can do both, these guys are single by the way.

Looking badass in Pre Wrap

I normally don’t like taking selfies, but I felt selfies were in order for this occasion.

I wore this all day, and all night when I went to JoJo’s homecoming game. I had a great day with him and his family.

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Shaggy and Minne. Dress up days with my bestie.

I have had people come and go through my life, but these two guys have stayed constant. I have know the guy in the Minnie ears since 2nd grade, and we’ve always been able to talk to each other. The handsome man up top with my beautiful self is my best friend JoJo, him on the contrary I have only know since the beginning of freshman year, and he was the one who stayed, and he’s probably the best friend I will ever have.

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Minnie and me.

Note about high school: always do the dress up days, even if it’s a low key detailing for spirit, always do the dress up days. And above all, whatever you do, take pictures.

My instagram is basically just a lookbook of the evolution of me.

Hope you enjoyed this photography Friday, if you liked it give it a like, and subscribe for more.

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie