August 8, 2017
So I endured the first two days of school last week. It was good. I saw my friends but all the people were so overwhelming. I forgot my pop socket, so I had a hard time on the first day. I was fidgeting a lot, and so I flipped my hair without even realizing it, but I needed something to distract me.
I know everything is going to be okay, but it’s hard not to be anxious when every teacher is trying their very best to intimidate. But that’s fine because I live by the fake it till you make it quote and that’s what gives me confidence. Most of my teachers seem cool, but I’m playing two sports, and showing five species of animals at 3 different county fairs. I’m also taking all advanced classes, so it’s just a lot to think about but I can handle it.
Finally lunch came. I was still pretty anxious. Victor (my best friend since 2nd grade) hugged me for like a minute straight. I’m not always a huge fan of physical contact, especially at school when my guard is completely up and I don’t talk but that hug made all the stress go away.
Guitar was okay, but being in the band room with Mrs. Cassidy as my teacher always makes me feel so much better.
The day went on, I made it through, then I had my cross practice. Cross Country is great it’s such a small team, and a love hate relationship with running and feeling all that pain binds you together. So I always feel a lot better, when I run I’m in so much pain but I always feel so much better at the end.
This weekend I went over to my Fair Bestfriend’s house. She’s going to college. It was amazing to spend so much time with her. I just was present with her it felt amazing. I love her so much, and I’m so proud of her and I can’t wait to see her chase her dreams.
Remember, if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. Also remember life can be very crazy and it can make you very anxious so maybe just step back, but don’t miss out on everything life has to offer just because you’re scared.
So I guess I’ll catch you on the flip side.