Photography Friday #5

R.I.P Summer 2017

It’s been a good summer, but it’s time to say goodbye. I think I’m finally out of the mindset of endless denial about school. It’s here. I hate it, but it’s here. So this is the somewhat of the honorable mentions of  summer.

Summer started off at the Merced County Fair… It was crazy.

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Showed my market, and breeding goats, and horse showing. I was super successful in showing, and I had a great time. It was hard sometimes waking up in the mornings, but my bestie Victor was there and we went on a photoshoot. I ate so much junk food.

Then came Santa Cruz came. I don’t have many pictures but I had a good time going on all the rides like an adrenaline junkie.

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Next thing on the list was Kern River:

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White water rafting was so much fun. Even learned one of my favorite life quotes “Knowledge comes from experience, and experience comes from doing stupid stuff” From Bob one of the rafting guides.

Finally the Stanislaus County Fair. The biggest fair this side of the Mississippi, and the fair all my friends go do. I showed dairy goats, breeding goats, and market goats. I got to hang out with my now Chico Babe college girl. I love her. I also got to see lots of old friends and take lots of pictures.

 

 

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It was so nice to spend time with them and just be with them. They make me so happy, and give me good vibes. Find people that make you feel that way.

San Diego almost immediately after. Training for Cross Country all summer has been crazy. I worked my way up to 5 miles while I was in San Diego. It meant everything to me, and I got the chance to spend time with my immediate family, and it was great because I don’t often get to spend time with them, but we were really able to connect.

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San Diego was one of the best times. I was so inspired, and I was feeling so alive.

Summer finally started coming to an end with my last beach trip to Santa Cruz with my bestie and my church. We ran around like two year olds having a great time.

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They make me feel so happy and it was great to feel like a kid and alive before getting wound up like a string on my guitar when school starts.

Summer was amazing. Everything came and went so fast. It is always great to be alone and take care of yourself but the best part of summer is being with my friends that feel like family and people that lift me up and fill me up with such a good energy it’s indescribable.

These people mean everything to me, and I always try to let them know that I love them because life is short but our friendship isn’t.

I thank God for summer 2017 and everything I was lucky to do because I had so many good times.

Good vibes = Good life

Catch ya on the flip side!

-Issie

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My Life Monday #11

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE INTERNET

That was fun. Imagine me yelling. I love to yell.

Anyways… let’s get down to business. *trying so hard not to make the Disney reference*

Anxiety. We all have it. That’s what this post is about. Some have it worse than others, but it is indeed inside all of us. Mine came out of me during high school. It was bad freshman year, and it’s the reason why I never look forward to school and I need a ‘safety person’ if I’m going to be in big crowds. I start to shake, my mind starts racing, my body overreacts and I start to cry. That’s how my body reacts and when I’m alone and my body is starting to do all the signs I know I got to get away, I got to get away from people as fast as possible. Nobody can see this. This also occurs when I am under huge amounts of stress, which means I undergo this at least once a week.

Some people experience this so badly they have no more control over their body, I understand that, but I never feel it as bady as that.

When I go through this I have to be alone. I go into the band room closet, lock the door, put in my ear buds, and play my guitar. I need my time alone, and at this point my friends understand and they go through the motions with me. Because it’s okay to be alone.

I spend my time alone, but then the next day I come back to my friends. We go back to the usual hanging out at lunch. But every now and then when I don’t feel okay or I start to cry in the closet having a hug from Victor never kills. What I’m trying to say is that it’s okay be alone sometimes, but you can’t spend your entire life alone. If your friends don’t lift you up, and they don’t help you when your brain gets too out of control you might need some new people in your life. But don’t spend the rest of your life alone high school can actually be a great experience, but if you lock yourself in the closet the whole time nothing will ever be fun, and anxiety will take over your life. Don’t let it do that to you, you have a good life, so live it, and it is okay to talk to people about these things. In fact the right friends will always help you in these situations. But don’t spend all of high school mourning in a closet, and talk to someone about it hearing another voice than one that’s coming from your brain makes all the difference.

And another thing. It’s okay to feel sad for no reason. I tend to and I don’t even know why. But you can’t let any depression like that eat you up because then you can’t enjoy all the beauty that life has to offer. Personally in high school you need to find the people you love, and you need to find the thing you love. For me its Cross Country and Band… or Guitar. Cross Country is a lot of pain but it gets everything off my mind, besides our team is like family. A love hate relationship with running really bonds people together, heck, we even went out for breakfast last Friday before school. Band is also the light of my high school life. They play at the varsity football game, so we all hang out during the JV game. Mrs. Cassidy’s office is like home. We sit around watching Netflix laying out on her couch eating pizza pockets. It’s literally home. Which makes sense because Mrs. Cassidy is Band Mom as we call her. I’m not technically in band, but I’m in band as the honorary member as me and my friends call it. Band makes me feel at home and we live by our on rules, and finding a place, or even those people in your high school makes everything better, and it makes any problems fade away.

High school has so many positives although teenagers are stupid. But just like everything else in life you get out of it what you put into it, and you can make it a good experience if you choose to make it one. And step one to making it a good experience is by slaying your dragons by yourself.

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High school so far: Blackout Dance, Comic Con with my friends, White Out/First Home Football Game with the band, My First 5k

Life is an amazing thing.

-Issie