Can you believe I’m two weeks away from being halfway through high school and two years away from the rest of my life? It’s kind of mind-blowing. Not saying that I wasn’t ever living before, but when you’re growing up you’re ever growing and expanding. You’re learning lessons from your parents and figuring things out for yourself the hard way. We never stop learning, but it’s when we go out on our own that’s when we really start to live. My dad told me this once, “Isabel right now you are just existing.” Sometimes it really feels like it, but other times with the people I love I have never felt more alive.
I’m feeling a bunch of different ways about that, but I can’t stop dreaming about summer. All the things I’m going to do, and the adventures and the nights that are never going to end. Sure, Jr year is going to be crazy busy and riddled with testing but it seems like lately, I’ve been dreaming about the future. But even better I’m excited about these two weeks with my best friends last days of being a sophomore.
My guitar concert is coming up in a week. Our amount of songs that we were playing got cut down but I auditioned to play “Humble and Kind” by Tim McGraw with the choir, and I got it.
There are so many things I’ve got to do but I’m manifesting happiness and lion inside of me.
In my English class, we have been doing a unit on happiness and the manifestation of it, and how to bring it into your life.
All the Ted talk speakers agree that gratitude is happiness and I completely agree. When you are grateful for what and who is around you, you can enjoy it and be happy. They also say being vulnerable brings happiness too. I think I can agree. My happiest moments are when I am with my best friends, and when I am with them my guard is completely down. I think when you can let your guard down and be vulnerable you can enjoy those happy moments to the core.
The past two weeks that I have been at fair, and working really hard to get my grades in order. I aced my algebra test. I feel very burnt out, and I’m trying to take as many hours as I can to rest. Through all the chaos the last two weeks I have stayed happy and have not panicked once. I feel healthy emotionally and mentally, but for the first time in a long time, I recognize the need to take care of myself. It’s almost a proud feeling. Self-care was one of my goals this year and the conquering of my anxiety, and I’m doing just that.
So go out there and achieve greatness, and manifest the lions in your life that can conquer anything.
Also, expect big changes this summer.