Manifesting Lions

Can you believe I’m two weeks away from being halfway through high school and two years away from the rest of my life? It’s kind of mind-blowing. Not saying that I wasn’t ever living before, but when you’re growing up you’re ever growing and expanding. You’re learning lessons from your parents and figuring things out for yourself the hard way. We never stop learning, but it’s when we go out on our own that’s when we really start to live. My dad told me this once, “Isabel right now you are just existing.” Sometimes it really feels like it, but other times with the people I love I have never felt more alive.

I’m feeling a bunch of different ways about that, but I can’t stop dreaming about summer. All the things I’m going to do, and the adventures and the nights that are never going to end. Sure, Jr year is going to be crazy busy and riddled with testing but it seems like lately, I’ve been dreaming about the future. But even better I’m excited about these two weeks with my best friends last days of being a sophomore.

My guitar concert is coming up in a week. Our amount of songs that we were playing got cut down but I auditioned to play “Humble and Kind” by Tim McGraw with the choir, and I got it.

There are so many things I’ve got to do but I’m manifesting happiness and lion inside of me.

In my English class, we have been doing a unit on happiness and the manifestation of it, and how to bring it into your life.

All the Ted talk speakers agree that gratitude is happiness and I completely agree. When you are grateful for what and who is around you, you can enjoy it and be happy. They also say being vulnerable brings happiness too. I think I can agree. My happiest moments are when I am with my best friends, and when I am with them my guard is completely down. I think when you can let your guard down and be vulnerable you can enjoy those happy moments to the core.

The past two weeks that I have been at fair, and working really hard to get my grades in order. I aced my algebra test. I feel very burnt out, and I’m trying to take as many hours as I can to rest. Through all the chaos the last two weeks I have stayed happy and have not panicked once. I feel healthy emotionally and mentally, but for the first time in a long time, I recognize the need to take care of myself. It’s almost a proud feeling. Self-care was one of my goals this year and the conquering of my anxiety, and I’m doing just that.

So go out there and achieve greatness, and manifest the lions in your life that can conquer anything.

-Issie

Also, expect big changes this summer.

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Lion at Heart

Hey. This post is more of an update on how I’m doing and where I’m at, so if you’re interested, then keep on reading.

So, starting. My boyfriend and I broke up. We both wanted to break up, so it was extremely mutual, but I am a little sad because it killed our amazing friendship. We were only together for two months. This is the first time I’ve been single in maybe over a half a year. I’ve been thinking about my first relationship a lot recently, my 5-month relationship that ended back in January. I don’t want to go back to it, I believe it ended for a reason, but I have been thinking about how good it was, and how I want that, someone like that again. Definitely not for a while, but at least it helps me once again recognize what I want. I believe that after any relationship you should try and find a lesson in it. I have no doubt in my mind that I am going to find something better than what I had before, but the lesson is always something to remember to think about.

I’ve also been studying like crazy. Homework is non stop, and I’m trying to get my driver’s permit. I have one week and a half until my test and I am completely and totally nervous. Not to mention having an unbelievably horrible amount of homework because the hustle never stops.

Speaking of stuff coming up in two weeks, Merced County Spring Fair is in two weeks, and I am working with my animals every day. When push comes to shove, I always remember I can sleep when I’m dead.

But it sounds like I’m complaining about all I’m doing, and we don’t need that negative energy. Today I played guitar for the second time with my church band, and I took my new acoustic-electric guitar (Jessie) out for a spin. I was great. I love music, it’s such a huge part of my life. I always tell people my playlist says what I can’t, and all my walls are down when I am listening to music and that is when I am truly myself. Since we’re on the subject of music, my high school’s spring concert is coming up. Where the band, choir, and guitar will be playing. The setlist for guitar includes:

  1. “Another One Bites the Dust” Queen
  2. “Heart Shaped Box” Nirvana
  3. “Elanor Rigby” Beatles
  4. “Stand By Me” King
  5. “Peter Gun” Mancini

Now, that sounds like fun. It’s even more fun playing it.

I don’t even want to think about finals, but if that is what stands in the way of my summer I am all for it, but that’s a month away.

Anxiety-wise, I haven’t had a single panic attack since my ex-entered my life. He was a really good friend for a while. I was lucky to have him in my life while I did. Sometimes I shake, but I feel healthier and better, and it seems like my body and my mind are handling situations that normally ended in wasting time panicking, in a good and healthy way. I also honestly think I am taking care of myself better. Even though I will always put work and especially my friends over myself.

I have a new plant family. I love watching them right by my window, and they’re succulents so I don’t have to take care of them 24/7. They say having live things around you makes you feel more alive, and it does.

Ooh, and I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I got M.V.P for soccer. That meant so much to me. I was the team captain and then M.V.P. My coach didn’t even show, only the assistant one. That says a lot about the season. He didn’t say much about anybody, but he did say that he believed that I would do great things and become a great leader, and that meant everything to me. I have a lot to live up to next year if I want to be varsity goalie, but I will work hard every day because I have to if I want to prove myself and gain respect.

I guess this is a good way to lead into why this is titled ‘Lion at Heart’. The breakup wasn’t that bad, but as I mentioned it kind of sucked, but it felt like I was my lion self again. I never changed myself, but I was sad for awhile that’s why the breakup occurred, but something changed. I feel free again. It’s like a part of me, the lion badass part of me turned on again. I am working non-stop, and I can handle it, and I feel ready to take on and conquer this week to come. I have been looking at my phone a lot. The Quote Wednesday #33 is my phone lock screen to remind me.

There’s a fire inside me, and it’s back and I can do anything. So can you if you really want to. I have a new lion logo in the works hopefully to be up by the new may changes. Follow to be a part of the pride, and give this a like down bellow too.

Have a good week and a good life.

-Issie

 

 

How to Survive High School: How to Be a Badass

Hello people of the internet! How are you doing? I am doing quite well. I’ve mentioned before, that the last two months have been really hard on me because of break-ups, moving on, and panic attacks for unknown reasons every week. I was not in the best place. Although I feel much better now, but for awhile I felt very stuck. It was like no matter how tired I would never be consistently happy. I needed a change and I knew it. I think the thing that helped me the most from escaping that dark void of anxiety and constant panic attacks was taking time for myself. I was so caught up, and I never had time for myself, and I am happy, and even in the face of adversity and stress I managed to handle it like a badass, and that’s what I’m here to help you with.

I have mentioned the term of badass in previous posts before. I have given that term a certain amount of power in my mind. When I hear that word I think of some really amazing person. Someone who has amazing stories and adventures, they don’t take no for an answer, and they most certainly don’t take any shit. And their confidence follows them anywhere, and everywhere they go. That’s the person I try to be, and I know for a fact I am the best version of myself when I am confident, and being a badass helps me conquer the world. So here’s my tips to you

 

How to Survive High School: How to be a Badass

 

1.Cut the negative out of your life- You are who you hang out around. I speak from experience by saying it may be hard, but if you are consistently around bad people or people that put you down in high school you will never get up to your full potential.

  1. Believe you are- I’ll do a post on the law of attraction, but if you believe you are a confident badass then you are. Even if you’re getting anxious even if kids are giving you crap just be yourself. Believe that yourself is the most badass person out there. Because you are.
  2. Don’t be insecure- You are blessed. I mean, you’re able to read this, your life must not be all that bad. Don’t be insecure about your life, or any part of your body. I tend to be insecure about my acne, but then I remind myself I’m beautiful. I rock my acne. That’s what badass people do they own their insecurities, and when they do they bring that sort of presence that makes you want to be around them.
  3. Don’t give a crap about the other people- When you’re a badass you’re above anybody else’s idiotic comments, because you are secure in yourself, and you should be.
  4. Fake it till you make it- I was always told this by my band director. You may not completely feel confident, but if you fake it, you will eventually make it. That’s why they say if you’re sad you should smile because even though you’re faking the smile it releases endorphins that make you happy, it’s basically the same thing with your confidence. It gets hard sometimes in the face of adversity, but it helps you feel like you can stand on your own two feet.

 

It’s not just about faking confidence to not get crap from either, it’s about accepting and loving yourself, and not caring about what others think because you are yourself, and that’s all that matters. That sounds like a great way to go through life to me.

So I hope you guys remember to love yourself, and take time for yourself. Hustle hard, and go out every day and be a badass.

 

-Issie

 

Panic Attack Aftermath Care List

So I had two panic attacks this week. One was out of the blue, and the other was for a very minor reason. I am okay, but it was just intense and I keep on dwelling on it, and I felt very shaken up about it. I feel a lot better, but I’ve been busy, although I know I need to take care of myself, I don’t have time to take a night for myself. So I’m trying to incorporate little things that I love to go into my busy schedule to help me. I mean, I’m writing this blog post, and writing always helps. So I am giving you my list of things I like to do to pick myself up after a hard panic attack. If you’ve ever been through one. They come out of nowhere, they shake you up, and they are emotionally and physically draining. Sometimes it’s also hard to get on with your day after.

  1. Meditate- Meditation is the best thing of life let me tell you. Meditation can come in so many ways. It can be in the form or writing, singing, praying, reading, or just straight up sitting in a cross-legged position on a yoga mat going full-on boho. I like to meditate outside barefoot on my yoga mat. Granted sometimes I meditate in different ways, but I love sitting there on my mat, feeling the grass in between my toes at the edge of it. Breathing in all of the sents around me and just taking it all in. I think I pray, sometimes I even shut down for a full 30 minutes. This is one of the most helpful things after a panic attack because most of all its a brief time to breathe in and breathe out, and that is one of the most important things to do right after. Considering you generally hyperventilate beforehand.
  2. Replenish yourself- Panic attacks are mentally and physically draining, so please, eat some food, and drink some water.
  3. Talk to someone!- Talking to someone even if they don’t deal with stuff like this is better than keeping it in. In fact, it just causes you too well up your emotions and you risk the chance of a mental breakdown. And man we’re trying to get that negative energy out of here!
  4. Repeat mantras or affirmations- Speaking of positive vibes only, when you panic, often after you feel so overwhelmed like a negative cloud is still over you even after, but you can’t let it ruin your whole day, or your life for that matter. So whisper positive afirmations under your breath. Don’t be hard on yourself. You already went through enough physically.
  5. Take the night off- Take the night off, put yourself back together. Do your favorite stuff. Dress yourself up, get comfy, listen to music etc.
    1. Build a fort- Build a fort somewhere in your house make it comfy. Put lots of blankets in it, and lots of pillows. Get your computer, and some candles. Being in a fort also makes you feel more like a kid, and you can lay low and relax.
    2. Watch movies- Movies are the best I love watching Clueless, and School of Rock. I prefer watching comedies, or like 90’s-20’s movies.
    3. Listen to music- Music is the way the soul speaks when words don’t work so well and my friends are good listeners, but they have horrible advice but I know they’re always there for me but they’re boys and they’re bad at giving advice. So music helps a lot. My Spotify playlists (Running and Thinking, and Problematic help a lot) ispat1000
  6. Take care of yourself- Drink water, eat food, be nice to yourself.

This isn’t something to be ashamed of or to get mad of yourself about, this is something to accept as a part of you, but always work to minimize it’s affect on your life. Because you can always have a bad day, but in the end, it is our choice to have a bad life. I love you all. Like and follow for more.

-Issie

The Action that Causes a Reaction

So the resolutions, goals, and priorities for this year have been made (if you would like to see them in a post comment bellow). But the thing is, this is that time where we have to take the action do cause the dream of the positive reaction. Last year was the year I decided I needed to change, so sticking to my resolutions wasn’t something hard. I knew what I wanted, and I put in the work and made my dream a reality, and it wasn’t too hard. I also made realistic goals that challenged me in so many ways. Looking back on my resolutions from last year I achieved much of them, and those I didn’t achieve I either matured out of, achieved in a diffrent way, or I put it on my list to work on for this year. It’s all about making yourself better.

For most people to take the first step to make a change is so hard, and to keep it up until you break the cycle of whatever you don’t like in your life to create a positive habit. The first step, well, I can’t help you with that. When you write these resolutions, goals, and priorities, you have to do it for yourself. But what I can do is motivate you, to keep it going and that’s what the rest of this post is about.

When you do finally realize your goals and the steps you got to take, to get there keeping it up is the hardest part.

It was once said:

The journey of 1,000 miles begins with a single step.

-Lao Tzu

But every single step is hard until you build up endurance.

For 2018 to keep up with your goals sometimes it’s helpful to have a motto. Something that keeps you going, or makes you happy. It keeps you in line for your goals. Last year was Good Vibes=Good Life, I realized I liked saying that about February, then I decided to change it to my blog motto on the top banner. I repeated it to myself when I needed a lift, or when I was doing homework and struggling it reminded me of the future that I was working for, and what was making me happy. This years motto is Hustle, because I know with all the things I want to do, and I have planed I’m going to have to hustle. You just gotta remember your motto, and sometimes it helps to put in a central place.

Speaking of a central place. It also helps to have dream boards. It’s the law of attraction whatever energy you put out into the world you receive back. So, a dream board helps keep that positive attitude, and helps you visualize what you want. If you can see it, you can have it.

This dream board can be your computer wallpaper, or your phone lockscreen. It can even be pictures around your room that bring you joy and keep you going. I had a picture of me and my boyfriend at homecoming since September, and my home screen was my soccer schedule. It’s so simple but I changed my screen to my boyfriend kissing my cheek on new years, and a close friend of mine I haven’t seen in awhile. It just makes me happy, and the new pictures it’s like a sense of renewal. That I have these people in my life for the next year, and I can do so much in this new year. It’s crazy, but it works.

You can do anything if you set your mind to it. Remember that. I hope you have a great year, and a great life. Like and follow bellow. Thanks for reading.

-Issie