“Put your head up” he said
For you are a lion.
Don’t forget that
nd neither will the sheep”
Hello, people of the internet. Today’s post is going to be a weird one, but try and keep up with me. I hope you guys are doing well, and are having a good week and a good life. But I’m going to jump into it.
This is something I haven’t told too many people, I think just my boyfriend my mom. I always thought this was so weird, but I think I would love to bring this into my life more. I feel spiritually connected to my core to a lion. I don’t know where this started but I do. I was born in July, and I am a Leo, but I feel like the connection goes further than my zodiac.
“The lion is one of the most widley recognised animal symbols in human culture.”
When I hear or see a lion my first thoughts are about how the lion is considered the “king of the jungle”. They are a sign of leadership, strength, and courage. Ancient Egyptians even worshiped them for their strength and fierceness. So in my mind, I have always looked up to the lion for the symbol it is.
The character of a lion does also say a lot about my deep connection with it. They are some of the only animals that live in groups called Prides. They are also the only animals that attack with females, and are very strategic and intelligent as well as lazy and sleep a lot.
Taking the lion description do another perspective. I mentioned at the beginning that I am a Leo, and the traits of that zodiac almost completely relate to me. (Disclaimer: I don’t take zodiacs to heart, but there’s a certain amount of connection I feel to them).
So the Leo zodiac is based on a lion, our planet is the sun (makes sense), and our element is fire. Leos are very confident, headstrong/stubborn, strong, loyal, fiery, fearless/adventurous, etc. My personality and life actually accurately relate to the traits of a Leo, even the faults are similar to mine.
I didn’t connect the dots on this connection until last year. As a person, I find that I am a very strong person that can stand on her own two feet, but I need my friends and they really are my Pride. Lions are just so strong and majestic, and I think that’s so amazing to look up to something so pure and amazing like a Lion, and I love incorporating the traits of strength and loyalty to make myself a better person. The lion is so badass and bigger than me. Even before I felt this connection I always loved the lion’s breath in yoga and called my crazy curly hair my ‘Lion’s Mane’. Because in my mind heart and soul not only am I connected to a lion, but some part of me is a lion.
I am also going to be making a logo soon that might have some lion incorporated into it. Always work to make yourself better, and like and follow more down below, and hustle harder every day.
“You’re gonna hear me roar”
-“Roar” Katy Perry
Hello, people of the internet! Hope you’re having a wonderful day and a great life. As some of you may know, Panic! At The Disco, (or Bendon Urie) has finally revealed what they have been working on for almost a year and a half. I know I have been begging for this and having waited for so long for these new songs, it was like becoming a Panic! fan all over again. Their sound is so different and distinct it’s not for everyone, but you’ll know it when you hear it. There’s no other word to describe it but, Alternative.
Before we jump into the review and the songs I want to give you a bit of background about the band. As I mentioned before Brendon Urie is the sole original member of this band. Their career jumpstarted when they were still in high school with their first album ‘A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out’. Soon enough their American Alternative Rock music shaped a generation of LA emo rockers. While still in high school and have yet to ever play live Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy caught wind of their music and Panic! At the Disco became the first band ever signed to Pete’s record label (Fueled by Ramen). Then their exclamation point after Panic! became an iconic symbol for their sound. With this label, they have dropped several albums with the future coming of ‘Pray For the Wicked’ as their sixth studio record to be dropped. Without getting into too much detail, people of the band started slowly leaving. Some for mutual reasons, some for more than that. Either way, you could hear a change as Brendon’s ideas came to the forefront, and they’ve never looked back, and never stopped making great music.
‘Pray For the Wicked’:
Panic! At the Disco, having been silent since after their Death of a Batchelor tour left their fans in a shock, or in this case a panic when they noticed two new songs released. March 22, two teaser songs were dropped from the album “(Fuck a) Silver Lining” and “Say Amen (Saturday Night)” Quoting a Tweet I saw somewhere:
“Brendon, putting parenthasis in the title doesn’t make them any less long”
Very true, but it also doesn’t make these songs less iconically Panic!.
The album ‘Pray For the Wicked’ is an eleven track record including:
- “(Fuck A) Silver Lining”
- “Say Amen (Saturday Night”
- “Hey Look Ma, I Made It”
- “High Hopes”
- “Roaring 20’s”
- “Dancing’s Not a Crime”
- “One of the Drunks”
- “The Overpass”
- “King of the Clouds”
- “Old Fashioned”
- “Dying in LA”
Brendon said that after his tour, and staring in ‘Kinky Boots’ he needed to take some time for himself to work on music and himself, and man was it worth it. Speaking of the tour, along with the new album dropping Panic! also announced the dates for the ‘Pray For the Wicked’ tour up on his website: https://panicatthedisco.com/prayforthewickedtour/ And just so you remember to mark your calendars, ‘Pray For the Wicked’ will be released June 22, 2018.
1.”(Fuck A) Silver Lining”
I personally believe this first song being released with “Say Amen…” makes this song very misunderstood, and the lyrics are confusing, to begin with. I knew I liked it. With the bazar sounding opening:
To the old, and to the new
We dedicate this song to you
Then to pick up with a full beat shouting “Fuck a silver lining, because only gold is hot enough” I got the concept, but I think the Pop Song Professor on YouTube (who is a professional lyricist and analyzes songs and lyrics for a living) said it best. In the English Language, we have the saying of a ‘silver lining’ to look on the bright side of something or the good points after a storm. Brendon is essentially saying F**k that, only gold is good enough.
No wings of wax or endless mountains
Tragedies with penniless fountains
It’s just cherries, cherries
It’s coming up cherries on top
Sunset shadows through the trophies
I guess it just ain’t big enough
Say it one more, one more, one more
The waxwings referring to the story of the man who flew too close to the sun and his wings of wax melted, and the cherry on top is another term in the English Language referring to that something extra in your life. “Sunset shadows through the trophies” is trying to show that in the end, he wants to look back on all he’s achieved.
For the full analysis go to: https://youtu.be/AGpOED1cQrI It’s incredibly interesting to see all the literally influences Brendon uses in this song to just describe how he wants nothing but a good kick-ass life. He has no time for the negative, and he just won’t stop. Listening to this song you either want to dance or move in some way. You can feel a sort of connection to it, and with the curse word in it, it gives a stronger emphasis. You can only enjoy this song to a certain extent until you figure out the hidden meaning.
2.”Say Amen (Saturday Night)”
Out of the teaser songs, this one takes the cake with not only an audio-video but a music video too. This music video could be linked to those of “Emperor’s New Clothes” and “This is Gospel”, but before we get into theories it’s time to break down the song. For this analysis, I had my own theories, but I watched another video made by the Pop Song Professor, be sure to go see him on YouTube.
Been traveling in packs that I can’t carry any more
Been waiting for somebody else to carry me
There’s nothing else there for me at my door
All the people I know aren’t who they used to be
And if I try to change my life one more day
There would be nobody else to save
And I can’t change into a person I don’t wanna be, so
Oh, it’s Saturday night, yeah
This first verse is about how Brendon is trying to be himself. He mentions that his friends aren’t who he thinks they are and he’s been carrying them, but they don’t do the same for him. In the end, he doesn’t want to lose who he is so he says well it’s Saturday night.
This song has an interesting concept. I think everyone can relate to having two-faced people in their lives, but saying it’s Saturday night is a different way of bringing out who you really are. Whether you’re going out to get over something or binge-watching Netflix I guess it’s one way show a pure version of yourself.
Swear to God, I ain’t ever gonna repent
He doesn’t care, he’s not gonna apologize for who he really is, as this line is repeated in every chorus.
Brendon makes it so he almost sounds sorry for himself in the first verse but by the chorus, he shows his true self, and his true vocals as he takes over singing that this is who he is and if you don’t like it, deal with it. What a great way to go through life? But finally in the true fashion of Panic! At the Disco Brendon whips out a high note to end all high notes. It could probably shatter glass, but then again Brendon can do that with his good looks too.
In “Say Amen…” An artifact called the Devils Key is stolen by Brendon. People sneak into his place and he starts killing them when he defeats all the bad guys (it’s pretty intense, but that’s Panic! for ya), his girlfriend comes in. They start kissing, and as Brendon takes his shirt as she sees the Devil’s Key, and ironically kicks him in the crotch right as he hits the high note. She eventually takes the key and his heart starts beating like the opening of “This is Gospel”. Everyone thinks the storyline goes “Say Amen (Saturday Night)”, “This is Gospel”, “Emperors New Clothes”. But I think “Emperors New Clothes came first, and that’s where the Devil’s Key was formed, then moving to “Say Amen (Saturday Night)” To finish off with “This is Gospel”.’
I hope you enjoyed the background of these songs. I’m excited for the release of the new album, and this is just what I’ve been waiting for. Comment on your music video theories, and like and follow for more.
There is finally a break from all the rain! Sunshine is here and in a pleasant amount! (Generally, in the Central Valley of California it’s either one extreme of wet and cold to the other of triple number degree temperatures.) I have been waiting for spring to finally, well, spring up from the earth. I always find when the temperature gets cold I always find reasons to have the blues, even if it is from external forces that are out of my control. Spring means school is almost over, I can wear flip flops and run more. Even better it means that summer is almost here! But I am not mentally or physically prepared for heatwaves that feel like they last from infinity.
As March is winding to an and it felt like it wasn’t quite my month. I was very busy with school, and I ignored the things that I want to manifest into my life or some things I should do to take care of myself. Not a single panic attack and I never stopped hustling.
Some of the biggest things I’ve wanted to manifest into my life include:
- New blog logo- I want to create a logo that goes at the top of my website for the tab and a logo that represents me and I can put on everything.
- Lions- Follow up post on the reasoning for Lions next week, follow to hear about it when it goes up.
- Plants- It’s spring! I want more plants, and I want to work hard not to kill them.
- Better outfits- Because California has been in a drought since I was a baby child my wardrobe is mainly equipped with warmer climates. Despite how much I love my sweater that I wear every single day of my life, I want to change things up now that it’s warmer to boost my confidence a bit.
- My driver’s test!- I forgot to study a lot this month for it.
- Acoustic electric guitar- I’ve wanted one for a half a year now and my playing has gotten much better.
Since we’re talking about playing guitar. I’ve been playing for three years. I am a pretty solid rhythm guitarist. I want to get better at playing lead electric guitar solos and improvising. But now, I am playing acoustic guitar at my church every month. I play three songs and strictly rhythm. I can sing, but I can’t carry a tune in a bucket in the keys that the church plays in (G and B).
I have three guitars now, two electric and one acoustic. My electric’s name is Jay Fender, he is a Fender Stratocaster, the new electric guitar was given to me by my boyfriend that plays blacksaphone and got this guitar when he was a kid. He no desires to learn guitar so this is the newest member of our family. His name is Tiny Tim, being that he is a Stratocaster Mini. Finally, my very first guitar is a red acoustic Jhonson guitar, his name is Martin. I can’t use Martin on stage because he’s not electric, and he’s getting too small being that I got him 5 years ago when I was small.
This month for me has been an amazing transition from all the problems I was having to kicking ass. If you would like to hear me play guitar, or just hear more about guitar let me know in the comments. As I am coming out of hibernation I will continue to learn and make myself better, as well as take care of myself and do some things to make myself happy. I hope you all will do the same and continue to grow into some amazing human beings.
Gonna take some time to do the things we never had-“Africa” Toto
Hello people of the internet! How are you doing? I am doing quite well. I’ve mentioned before, that the last two months have been really hard on me because of break-ups, moving on, and panic attacks for unknown reasons every week. I was not in the best place. Although I feel much better now, but for awhile I felt very stuck. It was like no matter how tired I would never be consistently happy. I needed a change and I knew it. I think the thing that helped me the most from escaping that dark void of anxiety and constant panic attacks was taking time for myself. I was so caught up, and I never had time for myself, and I am happy, and even in the face of adversity and stress I managed to handle it like a badass, and that’s what I’m here to help you with.
I have mentioned the term of badass in previous posts before. I have given that term a certain amount of power in my mind. When I hear that word I think of some really amazing person. Someone who has amazing stories and adventures, they don’t take no for an answer, and they most certainly don’t take any shit. And their confidence follows them anywhere, and everywhere they go. That’s the person I try to be, and I know for a fact I am the best version of myself when I am confident, and being a badass helps me conquer the world. So here’s my tips to you
How to Survive High School: How to be a Badass
1.Cut the negative out of your life- You are who you hang out around. I speak from experience by saying it may be hard, but if you are consistently around bad people or people that put you down in high school you will never get up to your full potential.
- Believe you are- I’ll do a post on the law of attraction, but if you believe you are a confident badass then you are. Even if you’re getting anxious even if kids are giving you crap just be yourself. Believe that yourself is the most badass person out there. Because you are.
- Don’t be insecure- You are blessed. I mean, you’re able to read this, your life must not be all that bad. Don’t be insecure about your life, or any part of your body. I tend to be insecure about my acne, but then I remind myself I’m beautiful. I rock my acne. That’s what badass people do they own their insecurities, and when they do they bring that sort of presence that makes you want to be around them.
- Don’t give a crap about the other people- When you’re a badass you’re above anybody else’s idiotic comments, because you are secure in yourself, and you should be.
- Fake it till you make it- I was always told this by my band director. You may not completely feel confident, but if you fake it, you will eventually make it. That’s why they say if you’re sad you should smile because even though you’re faking the smile it releases endorphins that make you happy, it’s basically the same thing with your confidence. It gets hard sometimes in the face of adversity, but it helps you feel like you can stand on your own two feet.
It’s not just about faking confidence to not get crap from either, it’s about accepting and loving yourself, and not caring about what others think because you are yourself, and that’s all that matters. That sounds like a great way to go through life to me.
So I hope you guys remember to love yourself, and take time for yourself. Hustle hard, and go out every day and be a badass.
“I have vision and the rest of the world wears bifocals.”
-Butch Cassidy and my Dad
Hello, people of the internet! How are you guys? I hope you’re doing great. I know I am, but I’m also a little cold. But for a girl who lives in the valley of Californa where there has been a drought for almost 5 years its freaking cold outside! But I mean at least it’s raining. Hence this post. So this is my go-to list of things to do on a good rainy day.
- Be Productive- Take time to do tasks inside. Clean your house, do some computer work, be productive. Get the little inside tasks that you normally push aside done, and do it at your pace. It’s raining, so its a chill day.
- Take a mental health day- Now that your work is done take a mental health day. Spend some time by yourself, take care of yourself, and your body. Do things that make you happy.
- Try something new- There’s only so much you can do while inside, but with the internet, we have the world at our fingertips. Learn something new, read a new book, write, do something that you’ve always wanted to do before. Listen to music, have a dance party, try yoga, just love your life.
- Watch movies!- Movies are my favorite thing in the world on a rainy day. I will cover Netflix and Amazon Prime for a good movie.
- Build a fort- Going with the movie theme, build a fort, make it comfy and cozy. Add tons of blankets and pillows, candles, twinkle lights, and make it a safe place. Let out your inner child.
- Make food- Food makes the body and the soul happy. Don’t go out and get food make food from what you already have at home and just have a good time.
- Hang out with friends- It’s good to take time for yourself, but we are always better when we are with other people. Take time with the people you care about most, and just relax in comfy clothes and have a good time.
Just yesterday my friends and I got together to play board games, and watch old movies, and play truth or dare. It was a super chill night, we took tons of polaroids and it felt great to just be together.
So if you have a rainy day, try one of these things. Because every day is a possibility even the rainy ones. Have an amazing week, and an amazing week. Follow and like for more where we hustle harder every day.
“Yeah, I’m okay, I’m just extra.”
-Me (when I fell in PE slidding to hit the badmiton birdy)