Panic Attack Aftermath Care List

So I had two panic attacks this week. One was out of the blue, and the other was for a very minor reason. I am okay, but it was just intense and I keep on dwelling on it, and I felt very shaken up about it. I feel a lot better, but I’ve been busy, although I know I need to take care of myself, I don’t have time to take a night for myself. So I’m trying to incorporate little things that I love to go into my busy schedule to help me. I mean, I’m writing this blog post, and writing always helps. So I am giving you my list of things I like to do to pick myself up after a hard panic attack. If you’ve ever been through one. They come out of nowhere, they shake you up, and they are emotionally and physically draining. Sometimes it’s also hard to get on with your day after.

  1. Meditate- Meditation is the best thing of life let me tell you. Meditation can come in so many ways. It can be in the form or writing, singing, praying, reading, or just straight up sitting in a cross-legged position on a yoga mat going full-on boho. I like to meditate outside barefoot on my yoga mat. Granted sometimes I meditate in different ways, but I love sitting there on my mat, feeling the grass in between my toes at the edge of it. Breathing in all of the sents around me and just taking it all in. I think I pray, sometimes I even shut down for a full 30 minutes. This is one of the most helpful things after a panic attack because most of all its a brief time to breathe in and breathe out, and that is one of the most important things to do right after. Considering you generally hyperventilate beforehand.
  2. Replenish yourself- Panic attacks are mentally and physically draining, so please, eat some food, and drink some water.
  3. Talk to someone!- Talking to someone even if they don’t deal with stuff like this is better than keeping it in. In fact, it just causes you too well up your emotions and you risk the chance of a mental breakdown. And man we’re trying to get that negative energy out of here!
  4. Repeat mantras or affirmations- Speaking of positive vibes only, when you panic, often after you feel so overwhelmed like a negative cloud is still over you even after, but you can’t let it ruin your whole day, or your life for that matter. So whisper positive afirmations under your breath. Don’t be hard on yourself. You already went through enough physically.
  5. Take the night off- Take the night off, put yourself back together. Do your favorite stuff. Dress yourself up, get comfy, listen to music etc.
    1. Build a fort- Build a fort somewhere in your house make it comfy. Put lots of blankets in it, and lots of pillows. Get your computer, and some candles. Being in a fort also makes you feel more like a kid, and you can lay low and relax.
    2. Watch movies- Movies are the best I love watching Clueless, and School of Rock. I prefer watching comedies, or like 90’s-20’s movies.
    3. Listen to music- Music is the way the soul speaks when words don’t work so well and my friends are good listeners, but they have horrible advice but I know they’re always there for me but they’re boys and they’re bad at giving advice. So music helps a lot. My Spotify playlists (Running and Thinking, and Problematic help a lot) ispat1000
  6. Take care of yourself- Drink water, eat food, be nice to yourself.

This isn’t something to be ashamed of or to get mad of yourself about, this is something to accept as a part of you, but always work to minimize it’s affect on your life. Because you can always have a bad day, but in the end, it is our choice to have a bad life. I love you all. Like and follow for more.

-Issie

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An Ode to Being Alone

This is an ode to being alone. This is a story about a girl who loves to sit by herself. Why don’t people like this anymore? People rush around latching to attention, even if it’s from a negative place, but at least they are not alone. But why do they fear it? Do they fear themselves? I did once, I understand, but I also know nobody can put my demons in the corner but me. Every now and then they crawl back, but sometimes you need your demons to help you recognize when you need to let go of another darkness that has gradually put itself into your life.

People also have a fear of the dark. Especially when alone. The dark is nothing but another perspective of the day. Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean we should fear it.

Maybe that’s why people don’t like to be alone, we have a fear that we might get killed, or kidnapped by ourselves, but maybe it’s the sub-conscience thinking that they fear because they don’t understand themselves.

Humans are a weird amazing species. If you sit down alone for a second and just watch other people. That’s what I’m doing. I have friends, by reading this, you probably think I don’t, I do. I love being with them, or around them, but they know me so well they know when I want to be alone it’s just because I’m in the mood for hanging with myself because internally I’m a pretty dope person. But they also know when to not leave me alone. When my boyfriend breaks up with me, or I have family issues, or I’m stressed, or anxious about anything they know not to leave me alone because it’s hard for me to open up to people or ask them for help if I need it. But I don’t have to say a word, they know.

As much as we hate being alone, sometimes we shouldn’t. To any unspoken rule that humanity creates, there’s always a contrary situation. I love being alone, but I need my friends. That though, is what makes me human.

I raise goats (I know, that’s a huge twist in the conversation). But I can spend $300 dollars on a goat to raise to take to market. But he isn’t worth anything if he doesn’t have a friend. Goats are social animals, and if they don’t have a friend they are less likely to gain as much as they should, because they’re lonely.

That’s us. Well, makes sense, God says we’re like sheep. Sheep are stupid, so are we. We get amazingly lonely because we don’t love ourselves, and we fill lost without our shepherd, but we replace our shepherd with invalid things in our lives.

So far, we subconsciously fear ourselves and hate ourselves. Most people do. That’s another reason why we don’t like being alone, we tell ourselves we aren’t and don’t look good enough so we, therefore, seek validation through other people.

When I ran cross country I went down two shirt sizes and one pant size. But I loved myself before I started running and changed my body. God and your Mama are proud of what they gave you, why can’t we accept it. Frankly, I love myself on the outside, and on the inside. And my personality has lots of rough edges, but nobody can understand me and love me as well as God and myself does. That’s why I love spending so much time alone. Yes, I may have some problems, and panic attacks from time to time, but at least because I love myself I can tell myself what to get better on.

This is an ode to being alone, because you, and I are really cool humans. When you spend time with yourself, you realize how awesome you, the things around you, and the people around you are. This is an ode to being alone, and all it has to offer. But it’s offerings come from us, so isn’t it really an ode to me?

Comment below what you think! Like and follow for more. Have a great week and a great life.

-Issie

M A N I A

Hey peoples. I decided to actually do a post for Friday. Monday was a bit downing, but I feel a lot better now. I hope anyone who was feeling crappy then too is feeling better.

But today we have something better, and more important to talk about. Fall Out Boy released a new album! M A N I A! I swear this album might have made purple my color for 2018. It’s so good. To most people F.O.B. is a very bazar taste. They’re a very unique sound with some strange lyrics that make sense at the same time. The fans understand. I love the new album. Let me tell you about my top songs on the album and why.

I’m not going to review all the songs, but I’m going to first put them in order in which I like them.

  1. “Heaven’s Gate”
  2. “Wilson (Expensive mistakes)”
  3. “Church”
  4. “HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T”
  5. “Champion”
  6. “Young and Menace”
  7. “Sunshine Riptide”
  8. “Bishops Knife Trick”
  9. “Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea”

This album is close to the same length of songs as American Psycho. Their last album (11 songs) which is pretty good, because it takes a lot to make an album, especially these F.O.B. albums with so much fire.

“Heaven’s Gate”- Let’s talk about this song. It is so beautiful. The words are so beautiful. Some of the lyrics are once again bazar but make perfect sense. I love Patrick’s vocals in the chorus, it’s a little raspy, but sometimes they sing like they’re a heavy metal band not pop, but that’s just how diverse their sound is. It’s 5 chords, making it more interesting than a basic 4 chord song.

The song talks about maybe not making it to heaven, and having a friend boost you over the gate, and how you want to be with your significant other forever.

“HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T”- I’d rather talk about this song more than the two above it just because the other two I love and have a meaningful impact on me, but this song, but this song is just so cool.

The music video for this song was shot trying to represent Dia de los Muertos 2016. I think this beat I just don’t know how to describe it it’s so cool!. It just makes you want to get up and dance and move your ass! It’s so rock, and fun. I am apparently bad with words now… I will be honest the song is a bit autotuned. Especially towards the end bridge. If you listen to him sing this song live on I think it is the Today Show, Patrick’s voice totally cracks. It’s a hard note he’s trying to hit.

“Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea”- This song I wanted to mention I put last because personally I wasn’t into it, and I couldn’t get into it, and I felt like some of the transitions from verse to bridge to chorus were too clashing for my taste. But this song is still on my playlists, and I like to listen to it before games for a little extra to pump me up.

Fall Out Boy did a great job on this new album, and I feel like they grew a bit but their music is still continuously true to who they are as a band. F.O.B. is definitely not for everyone… but I know I’m addicted. If you want to hear some of their stuff on my personal playlists ispat1000 on Spotify. It’s been awhile since I’ve talked about music, and I am definitely band trash. Comment below if you’d like to hear me do some guitar stuff. If you find me tolerable, like and follow for more.

Rock on people.

-Issie

It’s Hard to Write.

1/12/18

It’s hard to write. But it’s all I want to do. I just want to type and tell my story, but the words won’t come out, or they do but in the most absurd format. I don’t know if I’m okay. I thought I was, but I really don’t know.

School is hard, and my boyfriend and I broke up. As stupid as it may seem I cared a lot for him. He’s still in my life, but it’s hard to love him in a different way now. It’s hard, it’s all just hard. I refuse to let myself cry, I am too busy to do that. Now that I actually have time to cry, I don’t. I want to, it would be easier, but I can’t. My mind is racing with so much, I don’t know how to get it all out. I’ve written in so many pages in so many notebooks. I’ve tried talking to my friends, but nobody can make me feel better. I always used to depend on myself anyways. But after five months with him, I wanted to talk to somebody.

I don’t know what to write about, but I know I want to write. Writing is my best friend that is always there for me, and those pages never tell my secrets.

I’m nervous to go to school, last week that’s when we broke up my anxiety was acting up really bad. I’m worried it will tomorrow too.

I don’t know.

But it’s not like everything is bad. I’m now officially a part of the church band. They were playing music today, and they said they wished they had another guitarist, and I said I could play both rhythm and lead. So, now I’m playing once a month. I’ve been playing for three years, and now I can play almost any song I want.

Guitar is kind of like writing. It’s a war of expression.

Ooh, another thing I’ve gotten totally into now is yoga. I got a new matt. I’ll talk more about it in another post, but it’s so good.

Speaking of stuff I’m going to talk about latter, Fall Out Boy released their new M A N I A album. It’s really good, they’ve definitely got a bit of a different tone, but they are still staying completely true to themselves as a band, and their sound.

I also finally finished binge watching the TV show Friends, I love it.

You know what, I know I’m rambling about somethings stupid, but it feels good to write about it. I feel better. I don’t know if that’s just temporary, or not but I feel better, and that’s a step in the right direction.

It’s also super comforting knowing that even though I’m doing this by myself, I am not completely because God is on my side. The night that we broke up, I was goalie for my soccer team. I was by myself on our side of the field. The ball was on the other side, about to be played. I was just talking to myself, and picking at the grass. There’s really not much else to do when the ball is on the other side of the field. I am team captain, and we could have beaten this team if we wanted it. We lost, we didn’t want it. But while I was talking to myself I was praying out loud. That’s how I pray. I pace around and talk to myself, but in my mind I’m ranting or talking to an old friend. I told him, I gave myself, everything I had to Him. I told Him that I wanted to win the game, but I trusted in His plan.

We broke up.  It was for a mutual reason, but it’s still hard. But I told God I trusted him, so I have to continue to trust. My boyfriend wasn’t a Christian, and long term, I wouldn’t want to marry someone who wasn’t. But maybe, God will bring him closer. Because I truly believe in the power of God, because it has changed my life. And you may doubt me, but things have to break before they get better.

I normally don’t like to share stuff like this with the internet, but It’s not like there’s much to tell. Besides, this isn’t anything I don’t feel comfortable sharing. But I seriously feel a lot better after writing this, and knowing that somebody is reading, and maybe feeling better because they’re going through something too. That’s why I’m posting this on Monday and not Friday. Maybe a little something to help you through your week.

So yeah, to everyone who actually read all the way through, thanks for reading, take care of yourself, and have a wonderful life.

-Issie

How to Calm an Anxious Mind

1/14/18

Hello people of the internet! Welcome back to my site, thanks for actually clicking on this. I’m issie, and today’s post is about How to Calm an Anxious Mind. Mental health is something everyone struggles with, some more than others. Personally I have problems with getting super anxious and stressed, but although stress and anxiety play off of each other, they are two different things, so a post for another Friday.

So for me, I can get anxious by having a teacher talking to me, or a stranger, or being in a crowd of people, sometimes it happens when I can’t get my ideas out on paper. That’s why I write so much, because my mind is such a mess, and that mess makes me anxious. Stupid it may sound but it’s how it works for me.

I will start to shake, my hands, and then I can feel it down through my spine until it hurts. And more times than not I will start to break down and cry. Remember, this normally happens to me when I force myself to talk to people, or ask a teacher a question in school.

How I Deal With It

The first thing you have to remember, especially when you are in the heat of an attack you MUST breathe! Everyone will say oh dude you gotta breathe, but you really do. In through your nose, and out through your mouth, deep breaths. If you can slow your heart rate down you will feel better.

I generally know my triggers. Sometimes my anxiety comes out of nowhere, and it’s like I have to hold back a storm. But when you know yourself, and know your triggers, you can reverse engineer a solution to help yourself.

So if you know your triggers you can make yourself a care kit that might help you in the heat of the moment. For me, that would definitely be tissues, and some essential oils that relax you. I also always need a notebook for me, because I will have a mental breakdown if I can’t write because whatever is going on inside my head will consume me. Just pack a small bag of all the things that would help you if you ever get into that anxious situation.

Take Care to Prevent

When you take care of yourself at home, and make yourself happy, you normally don’t panic as much. So everyone, say it with me, out loud, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

Some things I find that help me to prevent any attacks start at home with your mental health, and just making yourself happy. What helps me is having lockscreens and home screens on my phone of things that are meaningful to me, like my boyfriend and a close friend that make me happy. I also change up my space to something that’s open, and I light lots of candles the fire and the scents calm me.

Drinking water will also make your body feel better, and when your body feels better, so will you.

You also have to take time for yourself. When your like me, and you’re stuck in the center of stress and thinking you can’t do it, trying to catch up and get good grades. But when you’re working so hard, you must take some time for yourself. To take a shower, do a face mask, binge watch and episode of Riverdale take that hour to make yourself happy, because then you’ll be better when you go back to work. Because I know for a fact if I don’t take that hour for myself I will spend two hours having an anxiety attack/mental breakdown.

Yoga is another thing that helps. This year I wanted to get better at yoga, and I’ve been doing the 30 day yoga challenge with Yoga With Adriene on YouTube. Yoga allows me to meditate, connect to my God, my mind, my body, and my spirit, and as stupid as it sounds I feel peaceful, happy, and strong. But I take it as a time to draw closer to myself and to God, because when you remember that God is on your side, you know you can conquer anything.

So remember, you are not alone, an everyone deals with this! Some deal with it more than others. But never feel like you are alone. This is like my acne, it’s a continuous battle but it does get better. Thanks for sticking with me this far if you liked this like, and follow down below, and comment what things you want to see. Thanks for being here.

-Issie